i'm sick of being sad
i'm sick of holding back
i'm sick of sitting alone at nights
i don't even know what i'm doing here alone tonight
it's friday night
before twelve
and im sitting at home in my pjs
what the fuck?
i'm 18.
i feel traped
i feel sick [metaphorically]
i'm in college
what is wrong with me?
this is not who i am.
this is me trapped.

what do you do
when ( Read more... )

everybody tells me not to love you ( Read more... )

I just poured my heart out
there's bits of it on the floor
And I take what's left of it and rinse it under cold water
And call him up for more

And I say baby, yes I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely
And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me
And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too

He said I'm sorry
so ( Read more... )

you know how every single time
i say i regret one thing in my life
well guess what it is?!?!!?

letting him go.

i listened to that song
as loud as i could
over and over
untill it made sence
...
<3

jordan way suposed to come home at midnight
and guess what!?!?
it's almost one
and i've been waiting for him to get online
and he hasn't
i hate boys

go ahead and roll your eyes at me
for getting all wraped up in them
and thinking im immature
well guess what
YOUR WRONG
today jen was having boy problems too
and she's like...older && stuff

i'm just gunna become a ( Read more... )

do you ever feel like everything is a lie
and your whole life is just bullshit
sometimes i wish i could just be happy

i see all the people i know
who seem to be so happy and so in controll
sometimes i wish i didn't have to take a pill
everyday just to make sure i'll be okay

sometimes i think all those really deep thoughts mean nothing
and were all just a ( Read more... )

so
i just got back from ohio
funeral.
another dead grandparent.
meh.

i have no patients anymore
and if sammual doesnt call me back soon
im going to crack his skull open
cause i cant stand spending nonstop time
with my family

anyway
wont be back in school till thursday
have fun without me bitches
:]

i ruined christmas

the world hates me
a lot
no idea why but it does
last night was bad
this morning i wake up
and i cant shower
cause my shower head came off
and now
i got more nasty little hate mail
seriously what is up with immature fucking girlfriends
i think they might all have lesbian crushes on me

im so madly in love with you
its sick
please stay in the backseat
and do not touch me
at all
id like to hear you say my name
just once more
if it wouldnt be to hard
i wont stop thinking
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