sickening
ok - so let me start out by saying i have been watching wayyyy to much Six Feet Under. I have one season left. If you've watched that show - you may know it's so fucking depressing. I don't know how a tv show can effect you so much - but it does.
As I'm watching the show - i see my reflection in the tv... so fucking depressing. i feel fucking huge and so god damn ugly. Part of my problem is i snacked all day. i dont have a fucking job so i am on the computer all day, watching tv, and snacking. I didn't take a shower and i look like shit all. and now i feel like complete and total shit. big time. i feel gross and totally unwanted. i think about tom and feeling like this helps me understand. part of these feelings are super unfair but some of them are super fair.
groooooooooooooooooossssssssssssss. i feel gross, ugly, fat and worthless. h-o-l-y shit. haven't felt this way in awhile. how did i let it get to this...
As I'm watching the show - i see my reflection in the tv... so fucking depressing. i feel fucking huge and so god damn ugly. Part of my problem is i snacked all day. i dont have a fucking job so i am on the computer all day, watching tv, and snacking. I didn't take a shower and i look like shit all. and now i feel like complete and total shit. big time. i feel gross and totally unwanted. i think about tom and feeling like this helps me understand. part of these feelings are super unfair but some of them are super fair.
groooooooooooooooooossssssssssssss. i feel gross, ugly, fat and worthless. h-o-l-y shit. haven't felt this way in awhile. how did i let it get to this...