anti-christmas?!
so yeah, it's almost that time of the season again. usually i'd be like everyone else, scrambling around at the last minute buying that perfect gift for someone. this year, however, is different. at first i hated the fact that we started playing xmas music at work a few days after halloween. that just made me feel like it's that special time of the year where everyone is happy (at least for the most part). i honestly just felt bitter just cause i know i'm not gonna be super excited for the holiday season this year. the main reason why is that i don't really have anything to be excited for.
sure there are good things that came out of this year: my new job and doing well at my new job. besides work, everything else in my life is whatever. i'm not doing as well as i can in dancing, i haven't prepared to even start going back to school, and it's just gonna be me and my parents celebrating xmas in our household. no special someone to shower with gifts. which i have to admit is something i love to do.
i thought that i was gonna be really anti-christmas this year and not do anything at all related to the holiday. but i realized that i do have a lot to be thankful for and i shouldn't be so emo most of the time. i started buying presents for my family and close friends and it felt good. even though there isn't that special someone out there, i did try to actually create some of my gifts instead of just buying them. putting in the time and effort for that particular gift makes it mean so much more, at least to me. i just hope they like it.
in all honesty, i don't even know what the point of this entry is. my mind's been pretty scattered for a while now. i randomly have tomorrow off which means a '3 day weekend' for me. it would have been great except that the plans i had made probably won't happen. =/. oh well. hopefully something good will come out to cheer me up by tuesday. let's see what happens ...
sure there are good things that came out of this year: my new job and doing well at my new job. besides work, everything else in my life is whatever. i'm not doing as well as i can in dancing, i haven't prepared to even start going back to school, and it's just gonna be me and my parents celebrating xmas in our household. no special someone to shower with gifts. which i have to admit is something i love to do.
i thought that i was gonna be really anti-christmas this year and not do anything at all related to the holiday. but i realized that i do have a lot to be thankful for and i shouldn't be so emo most of the time. i started buying presents for my family and close friends and it felt good. even though there isn't that special someone out there, i did try to actually create some of my gifts instead of just buying them. putting in the time and effort for that particular gift makes it mean so much more, at least to me. i just hope they like it.
in all honesty, i don't even know what the point of this entry is. my mind's been pretty scattered for a while now. i randomly have tomorrow off which means a '3 day weekend' for me. it would have been great except that the plans i had made probably won't happen. =/. oh well. hopefully something good will come out to cheer me up by tuesday. let's see what happens ...