back to reality ...
so yeah, this weekend was a great escape from all the happenings of life. our performance went well. i'm glad. i also had fun bonding with the team (hooray NOT getting drunk). =). came back home and just chilled. now i have to deal with stuff again. and it sucks because i'd rather not. my biggest goal in life is to be happy. and there are certain conflicting interests that are still nagging me at this time. i still want to be successful in my career life but i don't want it at the expense of happiness. i know things don't work out that way often but i need to find a balance. same things go with everything else in life. i'm just not at that point where i can just be satisfied with everything. i'm too comfortable. i don't take any risks (calculated or otherwise). there's just a lot of things going on right now that are difficult to deal with. i just hope sooner rather than later, i find what i am looking for. and with that decision, i hope i can accept it and know that it is for the best. the hard thing about this is that i don't know what i want just yet. that's just a part of me that i've been having to deal with. well anyways, i hope i at least get to enjoy one more day off until having to go to work for 5 days straight. =/. things will be okay. i know they will. i just have to keep on hoping, even though past experience says otherwise. i'll get through this ...