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So, I met this guy on the internet, myspace to be precise (a great beginning to any story)... we've recently ventured into facebook. His name is Foad Askari, as in fwad, not fode... I know... He apparently graduated two years before me at RHHS. He goes to College Park and he's tres seexxxxxyy.
Anyway, he keeps on trying to get me to go out with him, and I'm so torn. Part of me says that the only reason he wants to date me is because of my pictures on myspace. But, to progress out of our virtual sanctity? He wants to get dinner and catch a MOVIE? Holy crap, foad. Slow down, I've never even spoken to you. You've never even heard the inflections in my voice. You don't know how weird I am. On myspace, we can hit on each other passively. I never had any intention of meeting you. But the more I reject you, the more incensed you become, which is somewhat flattering and scary.
I can't kick the notion that one day he's going to show up here at Goucher...
But let me analyze this fairly. I mean, what's so bad about some hot older guy hitting on me?
Romance has never worked out for me. I haven't been in a steady relationship for years. Partially because I haven't wanted it, partially because I'm scared to death of it. And I'm afraid of what Foad's going to think if I'm socially awkward on a date. Like, what if I gnaw on his arm during the appetizer? oh christ. I keep on making up excuses, but last night he was like in this whole "once and for all..." mindset, where it was now or never. So, I told him I'd get back to him in a day... He's still waiting and I'm becoming progressively more and more psychotic.
What to do??