New, positive outlook...
I’ve been sittin here for a while
Wishing I could finally see you smile
I’ve been wanting to see you for a long time
But everyday I grow farther from
Everything I’ve done and everyone
Here we go again I’m alone now
(Chorus)
We try so hard
Cause we don’t know what we’re looking for
You try so hard
Because you don’t know what you’re looking for
Yeah I try so hard
Because I don’t know what I’m looking for
But yeah I’m happy
I’m happy now
I’m happy
I don’t know if I’ll ever find you
I don’t know if I’ll ever need you again
Cause I’ve been sitting here for so long
Wishing I could write a brand new song
Maybe it will remind you of a time when
I want to change.Old habbits get old and same for bad ones.becky and I have been thinking about just staying clean for a while.maybe for gooD.I hope becky finds someone she really likes because it seems lately all she's had are assholes for boyfriends which makes me mad.she deserves better.No more smoking.No more Drugs.Just being happy...drugs wont make anything better.I'm not trying to fucking preach here but it's true.and one day...I may not be allowed to hang around becky because of the bad influnced that i am.damn...we're 14...if we're going to drugs and shit lets at least hold back for a while.I sorta wanna be able to think straight so I can graduate high sckooL.Then me and becky and whoever we're in a band with at the time will move to NEW YORK!!!AND GET A RECORD DEAL!...yeah drugs will kill us before that time comes if we keep messing around with 'em.SCREW 'EM!no no i do not have an anti drug...except maybe going to SaiL and then wanting a record deal.but yeah.
in other news, me and Chris are doing better.we straighten some crap out.I feel less stressed.I feel happier that I only hang out with becky,chris,and amanda and sometimes Zak.too many people get involve it cause jealously which annoys me.But I really like Chris...maybe even more than like.but I hate that word..."love"
I hate love...
but love hate...
Angel From your nightmare,
JeSs
Wishing I could finally see you smile
I’ve been wanting to see you for a long time
But everyday I grow farther from
Everything I’ve done and everyone
Here we go again I’m alone now
(Chorus)
We try so hard
Cause we don’t know what we’re looking for
You try so hard
Because you don’t know what you’re looking for
Yeah I try so hard
Because I don’t know what I’m looking for
But yeah I’m happy
I’m happy now
I’m happy
I don’t know if I’ll ever find you
I don’t know if I’ll ever need you again
Cause I’ve been sitting here for so long
Wishing I could write a brand new song
Maybe it will remind you of a time when
I want to change.Old habbits get old and same for bad ones.becky and I have been thinking about just staying clean for a while.maybe for gooD.I hope becky finds someone she really likes because it seems lately all she's had are assholes for boyfriends which makes me mad.she deserves better.No more smoking.No more Drugs.Just being happy...drugs wont make anything better.I'm not trying to fucking preach here but it's true.and one day...I may not be allowed to hang around becky because of the bad influnced that i am.damn...we're 14...if we're going to drugs and shit lets at least hold back for a while.I sorta wanna be able to think straight so I can graduate high sckooL.Then me and becky and whoever we're in a band with at the time will move to NEW YORK!!!AND GET A RECORD DEAL!...yeah drugs will kill us before that time comes if we keep messing around with 'em.SCREW 'EM!no no i do not have an anti drug...except maybe going to SaiL and then wanting a record deal.but yeah.
in other news, me and Chris are doing better.we straighten some crap out.I feel less stressed.I feel happier that I only hang out with becky,chris,and amanda and sometimes Zak.too many people get involve it cause jealously which annoys me.But I really like Chris...maybe even more than like.but I hate that word..."love"
I hate love...
but love hate...
Angel From your nightmare,
JeSs