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hey mum,
thanks for helping and trying to help today. i'm sorry things got so hostile.
i feel like i'm doing my best, and i'm scared about
being here, and it's difficult to have anything other than a
cheerleader right now.
goodnight,
dylan
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Dyls,
I didn't feel hostility, just a resistance. You ARE doing your best. And you ARE making wise decisions. I don't think anyone, including me, could be doing any better!
I know you're scared about being there...you picked a mighty quest, beautiful one. And I also know you're going to be great & it's all going to settle in exactly the right shape for you.
Love,
Mum
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thanks for the letter earlier. i had to pause to
take a cry. i wasn't acknowledging the bigness of this, so rubbing against that honesty opened something in me. and admitting that i'm scared--and that it's okay to be scared--was a step towards vulnerability that i've been avoiding for some time.
love,
dylan
thanks for helping and trying to help today. i'm sorry things got so hostile.
i feel like i'm doing my best, and i'm scared about
being here, and it's difficult to have anything other than a
cheerleader right now.
goodnight,
dylan
----
Dyls,
I didn't feel hostility, just a resistance. You ARE doing your best. And you ARE making wise decisions. I don't think anyone, including me, could be doing any better!
I know you're scared about being there...you picked a mighty quest, beautiful one. And I also know you're going to be great & it's all going to settle in exactly the right shape for you.
Love,
Mum
----
thanks for the letter earlier. i had to pause to
take a cry. i wasn't acknowledging the bigness of this, so rubbing against that honesty opened something in me. and admitting that i'm scared--and that it's okay to be scared--was a step towards vulnerability that i've been avoiding for some time.
love,
dylan