Fucking boys

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I love Shawn very much but often I feel he does not appreciate me. He says he loves me and I am sure he does, but he sometimes does not show it in the way I want him to. He is not very affectionate. I have talked to him about this many times and he says he will try harder then he does for a few days or a week and then it dies down again. He does not seem to understand how important touching is to me. When he is tired or grumpy he does not want to even be touched at all it seems.I feel rejected when I try and touch or cuddle with him and get no response or even acknowledgement sometimes. I dont know why he is like this, but I don't accept it when he says he is too tired because it is his own fault for working so much.
I try as hard as I can to be supportive because I know he wants to make money etc but he needs to make some more effort, or I don't really know what I will do. The worst part is he asked why I was mad and when I told him it was that he was grumpy with me for no reason, he didn't even say sorry. He just said he wasnt trying to be grumpy and he didn't mean to.
Whatever.He should appreciate having a girlfriend who is as nice as me.
We hardly ever fight but this is on my mind and obviously needs to be addressed. Maybe I should go away for a few days and give him a chance to miss me and appreciate what he's got.Maybe I am overreacting but usually if something sticks in my mind or keeps coming up it is because it is important to me.