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Well, now it feels like life has come to a complete halt...i just dont know what to do anymore...i got serious issues to work out.
Im up a bit later that usaul...i kept having this unsettling dreams and couldnt sleep. They wernt really scary or anything...just...wrong, and i feel a little bad for smiling at them.
Im remembering back to my child hood a lot lately...i used to want to be in the mafia...no idea why...but those feelings are coming back. not that id ever join a crime organization... Its just that...the "fun" of those fantasys are coming back...
Perhaps all ive been going trough is causeing me to finally lose what marbles i had left.
Andrea and me are trying to work things out...but...down in my heart theres something wrong. things just arent the same as they used to be....not sure what it was, but i guess i just encountered that "straw that broke the camels back"
If only she had shown such willingness to try sooner, back when i was...we could have made it great. now its like we switched places...im out of hope and shes the one hanging on...I remember when it was the other way around...
I wish i could just die...but i refuse to die before im 100. i got to much left to do, and us capricorns tend to be stubborn.
Im up a bit later that usaul...i kept having this unsettling dreams and couldnt sleep. They wernt really scary or anything...just...wrong, and i feel a little bad for smiling at them.
Im remembering back to my child hood a lot lately...i used to want to be in the mafia...no idea why...but those feelings are coming back. not that id ever join a crime organization... Its just that...the "fun" of those fantasys are coming back...
Perhaps all ive been going trough is causeing me to finally lose what marbles i had left.
Andrea and me are trying to work things out...but...down in my heart theres something wrong. things just arent the same as they used to be....not sure what it was, but i guess i just encountered that "straw that broke the camels back"
If only she had shown such willingness to try sooner, back when i was...we could have made it great. now its like we switched places...im out of hope and shes the one hanging on...I remember when it was the other way around...
I wish i could just die...but i refuse to die before im 100. i got to much left to do, and us capricorns tend to be stubborn.