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I’m staying at this funny little motel on Olive Avenue called the Safari Inn. It has the essence and feel of old world Hollywood/Vegas It wouldn’t look out of place at all if it were sitting on the edge of strip in 1963. This is my second of five days in California. I’ve been spending most of my time helping Jesse (my brother) find an apartment
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I scrolled your myspace, it seems like you are selling yourself to a crowd in the way which really doesn't suit you.
I've read the text about all the passed people in your life, I was down with the same stuff - was 14 when both of my parents died, in 2004 my dear bro passed, 3 friends now passed, all the grand parents, one of two beloved uncles, lost love. In your age I overcame this "soul tranings" (lets call it this way) quite successfully, but 1,5 year ago I started to feel really DOWN. For 1,5 years I was not myself, I almost lost my 'bright' nature as some people were too jealous of my success. I spoiled myself with bad feelings inside like offence, grieve, pain...I closed myself to people I used to deal with, left only few to talk, to spend time with...I was not myself for 1,5 years. It was not me. I can see that you are probably in the similar situation right now. I am very sorry (what a silly word to express of how deeply sorry I am) to see such a shining person losing his light. DO NOT LET it happen! NO MORE! Shake your soul up! LIVE! Love will visit you as soon as you get rid of pain inside. Just libe your life with no shit - no fake environment around you!
PLEASE! I wish you could understand of what I am saying!
You completely lost your wonderful light style. It is painful to see such a bright guy writing strong-rythmed poetry. I do not say to fight with your circumstance now, leave them as they are, just take it as easy as you only can. And YOU can!
I really am sorry if I disturbed you with silly notations of mine. I just want you to come back to YOUR life. Full of joy and love no matter happens around you. Always remember - it's just a period. a blak stripe in your life which is important, so you could feel the light one is coming for you. Just do not let yourself be down. It's just a test on how good you are. Good to yourself, to your friends, to your people around you and in general - to God, as well. You can call it "God" or soul or whatever else the name could be, just don't throw, waste yourself. Your truly 'you' is wonderful! Don't sell yourself to nosey crowd. Just be yourself. Be you.
Kat.
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