back on the ground, trying to hit it running.
I'm back up. Internet works like nobody's business here. Liking the new place, trying to use some of the things I'm not used to to their fullest extent. Like a place to hang or fold the clothes after they come out of the dryer. Wow so that's what it's like? Still will be working a lot all afternoon and night most days. robably just have to do that till the store closes then who knows what to expect. They are not saying much. I feel like I may still have a job when that happens but maybe not. Plus I am still not happy at all about the situation changing that much as working in a different store means a lot of things that are not at all cool for the cash register guy like I am. Too much surveillance for starters then the added bonus of having those stupid arcade booths for people to watch porn in. The problems that come with that are just terrible and hard to deal with I'm very sure.
So other than the place being nice enough so far, everything else is kind of unsettleing and crappy. Especially since it appears that once again I'm flying solo. Once again I've had to stop hanging out with someone I liked a lot, (pretty much the only person I was hanging out with), and thought we were really tight friends because I found out I can't rely on them or expect the amount and kind of respect I give back. It'll be ok still eventually but it isn't going to be the same sharing experiences from my end that it was so it's limited now at best.
Too confusing and possibly contrite, (or some smart sounding word, maybe not that one), to really get into to it at this point I'm sure but the results are the same od song and dance for me. Girlfriend situation looks really really bad, against both of our wishes even, and I can't trust anybody to be straight with me about anything. Another long cold winter here I come. It just really wouldn't make any sense to do it any other way at this point but sometimes shit happens and plays out differently anyway. Probably better off if it just didn't this time. Maybe even for sanity's sake.
I did a lot to try to prevent this from happening because I knew 'not to do any favors big or small for this one person.' She did something anyway, a big favor you wouldn't even do for your own sibling probably, DIDN'T TELL ME ABOUT IT AT ALL FOR A YEAR, it blew up well before I was told, just like I tried to warn her about. So that puts her on a path I can't just follow right along into and I got no say in how that played out. Even if I were to just stick around and try to have that say then now there is this fear that something will just happen again from not thinking or consulting before doing. Like a stupid person or something would do. Which I don't want to see her like that but it was either pretty stupid or I'll never know if there was more reason behind it like it sounds like there should be. Supposedly it was for no good reason at all. Just blindly doing what should have been an obviously stupid thing to do.
To sort of finish this off then, how 'my good buddy acting like we are brother's' friend comes into it is apparently he knew about it for a long time and didn't really ever say anything about it. Not when it was still ok, not after it started to get effed up, not after it was totally effed up and here's the kicker; THEY PRETENDED THAT THEY DIDN'T KNOW ANYTHING EVEN AFTER I WAS FINALLY TOLD ABOUT IT. Stood right there in front of me pretending to be shocked as I was telling them the story of how bad she effed her life up. No fucking respect to be found for this dude anywhere on the fucking planet I guess. Fuck Me
So other than the place being nice enough so far, everything else is kind of unsettleing and crappy. Especially since it appears that once again I'm flying solo. Once again I've had to stop hanging out with someone I liked a lot, (pretty much the only person I was hanging out with), and thought we were really tight friends because I found out I can't rely on them or expect the amount and kind of respect I give back. It'll be ok still eventually but it isn't going to be the same sharing experiences from my end that it was so it's limited now at best.
Too confusing and possibly contrite, (or some smart sounding word, maybe not that one), to really get into to it at this point I'm sure but the results are the same od song and dance for me. Girlfriend situation looks really really bad, against both of our wishes even, and I can't trust anybody to be straight with me about anything. Another long cold winter here I come. It just really wouldn't make any sense to do it any other way at this point but sometimes shit happens and plays out differently anyway. Probably better off if it just didn't this time. Maybe even for sanity's sake.
I did a lot to try to prevent this from happening because I knew 'not to do any favors big or small for this one person.' She did something anyway, a big favor you wouldn't even do for your own sibling probably, DIDN'T TELL ME ABOUT IT AT ALL FOR A YEAR, it blew up well before I was told, just like I tried to warn her about. So that puts her on a path I can't just follow right along into and I got no say in how that played out. Even if I were to just stick around and try to have that say then now there is this fear that something will just happen again from not thinking or consulting before doing. Like a stupid person or something would do. Which I don't want to see her like that but it was either pretty stupid or I'll never know if there was more reason behind it like it sounds like there should be. Supposedly it was for no good reason at all. Just blindly doing what should have been an obviously stupid thing to do.
To sort of finish this off then, how 'my good buddy acting like we are brother's' friend comes into it is apparently he knew about it for a long time and didn't really ever say anything about it. Not when it was still ok, not after it started to get effed up, not after it was totally effed up and here's the kicker; THEY PRETENDED THAT THEY DIDN'T KNOW ANYTHING EVEN AFTER I WAS FINALLY TOLD ABOUT IT. Stood right there in front of me pretending to be shocked as I was telling them the story of how bad she effed her life up. No fucking respect to be found for this dude anywhere on the fucking planet I guess. Fuck Me