How to feel
Tell me. Please I really would like to know how I should feel, I really am at a loss. These days in Iraq all run together and I am not really sure what I will feel like when I come back. I am sure I still know how to love, I mean I can say "I love you" easily enough, and truly mean it. But its been a while since I've felt any real connection, I am detached here and I seem to have lost my safety line.
I don't fear for my life here, I won't let myself, ever. What is there to be afraid of? Dying, fuck that. I won't let myself be afraid, and its not even a conscience decision. I am not being macho or morbid, I just have no fear of this place, to be afraid feels illogical.
I get pretty mad at a lot of shit around here, enough to make me say that I hate it. If I feel like that I guess it means I still have the ability to feel love. With out hate, there is no love. What makes us love?
We sing songs here most nights, its pretty fun I guess. My favorite is a song about one of our sarge's, his middle name is Cosmic Augustus, pretty awesome I know. So we made a song about him being the God of Puddles and how he has a nemesis that is a little boy with a cane who beats him over the head. Its a good one, we have other songs too, mostly quite homoerotic ones, one of the crowd favorites is called "Spence I wanna fuck you" sung by my buddy cantrell, I add in the back up vocals. Is that weird to add in the back up vocals to a song about a man wanting to fuck me? Yeah, it probably is, but the song is so damn catchy.
Same Shit Different Day and a Completely Different Country
I don't fear for my life here, I won't let myself, ever. What is there to be afraid of? Dying, fuck that. I won't let myself be afraid, and its not even a conscience decision. I am not being macho or morbid, I just have no fear of this place, to be afraid feels illogical.
I get pretty mad at a lot of shit around here, enough to make me say that I hate it. If I feel like that I guess it means I still have the ability to feel love. With out hate, there is no love. What makes us love?
We sing songs here most nights, its pretty fun I guess. My favorite is a song about one of our sarge's, his middle name is Cosmic Augustus, pretty awesome I know. So we made a song about him being the God of Puddles and how he has a nemesis that is a little boy with a cane who beats him over the head. Its a good one, we have other songs too, mostly quite homoerotic ones, one of the crowd favorites is called "Spence I wanna fuck you" sung by my buddy cantrell, I add in the back up vocals. Is that weird to add in the back up vocals to a song about a man wanting to fuck me? Yeah, it probably is, but the song is so damn catchy.
Same Shit Different Day and a Completely Different Country