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tonight sucked, but i am NOT going to let myself get upset. i saw it coming. I KNEW IT WOULD COME... but i still went for it because i give into temptation easily. i'm not going to start off the new year upset because that's gay. i'm really looking forward to growing up. i want to turn 16, then 18, then 21, and then i want to stop. i don't want to go past that. i want to find true love by 21 and i want to have the fucking time of my life. i'm so ready to move on and start over with everything. i'm tired of my life, i love my friends still, i'm not tired of them. i just need a new routine and place of living. I WANT TO GET OUT OF HERE!!!!!! i want to find a fucking boyfriend. i haven't had a boyfriend that was true to me since last summer and that sucked because we didn't have that much in common and i lost interest. grrrrrrr. i can't wait for all this shit to be over and to be happy for good. i'm going to be so strong now.