I'm almost done with my book after writing and plotting this thing for almost a decade I'm finally going to be done with this book. And if I can manage, I'll try to work on editing it and getting the nerve to send out query letters so that I can hopefully publish under a pen name. I'm already not too hopeful as it seems that many people don't get ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is my official certification for medical billing and coding and I probably should have rescheduled. But I'm pretty sure its too late now so I'm just cramming the best I can tonight and in the morning before I take my test in the afternoon. Hopefully I can pass enough to get my certification and I'll be able to get the remote job of my ( Read more... )

So I've been working for a couple of months at this new job and things are going pretty good, the only bummer really is being in the patient engagement positions at the vaccine site where I have to be standing for 8 hours at a time and not sitting down doing patient registration which is my preferred position since interacting with people this way ( Read more... )

So as this pandemic continues and I continue to not have a job, I feel myself spiraling day by day. I'm not really sure what to do with myself each time that I feel like I'm going to implode, I want so much to have a connection with my mother and it just feels so incredibly out of reach and I don't know what to do about it. I want so much and I can ( Read more... )

This isn't real list, but anyway ( Read more... )

I'm sitll thinking about making my poetry book, I have a theme that I could follow for it to make one however, I do have a short story that I am writing in poem form that I should try to finish and maybe try to get it publish which will be a battle in itself ( Read more... )

Finally took my last test for my medical billing and coding program and passed. Now I just have to wait for my grades to register so it can give me, my final weighted GPA and then I can register to do the certification exam. I hope that I can find some useful study guides to pass and start a new career where I can work from home ( Read more... )

Every time I think that I'm making progress something happens that pushes me furhter back than when I was or keeps me stagnant in the very same position.

It's frustrating.

I'm frustrated.

Here it comes another year, and more reminders of how inadequate I am. I feel as though I will never get to accomplish my goals, that I may die sooner than ( Read more... )

I have too many things I need to throw away from myself. I keep finding more things I need to get rid of.

So I finally got a job, it felt as if it would never happen. I'm glad to have this stress of my back. But now it seems I may be coming to a cross roads. If my schedule is as flip floppy as it seems to be, I may need to speak up in order to have certain days for my spiritual concerns ( Read more... )