i have returned
what can i say, here. im sitting wrapped up in a blanket smothered in cigarette burns and wisely smoking a cigarette. i am seriously considering beginning to go to NA meetings with nick and his mom because apparantly i am predisposed to have this disease for the rest of my natural life and i just have to take it day by day and so forth and so on but the director is a real buttface. i just wrote a whole shitload of information explaining why but i dont want to betray any confidences so lets just say im going to go there and possibly throw a chair at his head. i would like to take a moment to commend stompstompstomp for signing up to this lovely live journaland nickand i had a fantabulous time at your birthday shindig yesterday. i feel old now though. maybe i can buy a toupee or a ferrari or some ditzy blonde bikini babe to assure my youth. not that i have to worry. according to the psychic i went to, ive got like a hundred years to look forward to. forgive me for not leaping for joy with my pompons but the idea of living in a nursing home appeals to me just about as much as eating a can of live spiders covered with slimy mushrooms. ...
then again...
in a hundred years, maybe finally well have those cities built on clouds and jet propulsion backpacks and surgery to make me look exactly like angelina jolie. i saw a special on her on the ellen degeneres show at 10am today and i just wanted to morph into the screen and throw allthe drawings ive done of her in her face and prattle on about how much i admire and respect her and what a damn kick ass person she is. but shes goingto think im a whackjob. its not like i want her autograph, i just want to be her friend and you know babysit maddox while shes away filming. i could teach him how to color and draw and take him to the park and stuff and..
ah well. it doesnt do to spend all of my time in fantasy and forget to live. she doesnt even live in america for Gods sake and how the hell am i going to get to england or cambodia? nick was angelic enough to get on here and find the most reputable addresses where i can send her my drawings and maybe JUST MAYBE a wedding invitation. i mean why not?
shes going to think im the worlds biggest git, i know it. but shes not only the most beautiful woman ever to grace this earth, the woman is actually genuinely bursting with this infectious personality. when she smiles and laughs, you cant help smile back even if she is on a tv screen.
im thinking of goingto a salon in dearborn tomorrow and applying for a desk job. the Good Lord knows ive had experience with salon work in my day and i could put the money toward the wedding... i miss you susannah. would it be cool if i just dropped by one of these fine days? i would call first of course just in case youre in the middle of some orgy with henry rollins and artichoke hearts. oh. and i insist that you add stompstompstomp to your friends list because the kid has an iq of like 150 and hes brilliant to the core. by the way, jerry, if youre reading this, i think sara(h) is just about the perfect girl i envisioned for you and i hope you two are together for a long long time. shes sweet, shes funny, shes gorgeous, shes smart and i wish and hope and pray that you two will be happy and take care of each other for a long time. its quite a challenge finding someone as cool as her and possibly even more of a challenge to find someone as cool as you. you guys are lucky and i know you are aware of that so i wont preach, but even her MOM seems cool and this is more vital than it sounds.
very well. enough with the happy crap. time to go wash my face, slather on my makeup and go kick some self-righteous ass.
love to everyone i love you all. soosie the quzie, write back, stompie, write back, obsolete model, write back..
xoxo times infinity plus one,
annmarie the infamous dream machine
then again...
in a hundred years, maybe finally well have those cities built on clouds and jet propulsion backpacks and surgery to make me look exactly like angelina jolie. i saw a special on her on the ellen degeneres show at 10am today and i just wanted to morph into the screen and throw allthe drawings ive done of her in her face and prattle on about how much i admire and respect her and what a damn kick ass person she is. but shes goingto think im a whackjob. its not like i want her autograph, i just want to be her friend and you know babysit maddox while shes away filming. i could teach him how to color and draw and take him to the park and stuff and..
ah well. it doesnt do to spend all of my time in fantasy and forget to live. she doesnt even live in america for Gods sake and how the hell am i going to get to england or cambodia? nick was angelic enough to get on here and find the most reputable addresses where i can send her my drawings and maybe JUST MAYBE a wedding invitation. i mean why not?
shes going to think im the worlds biggest git, i know it. but shes not only the most beautiful woman ever to grace this earth, the woman is actually genuinely bursting with this infectious personality. when she smiles and laughs, you cant help smile back even if she is on a tv screen.
im thinking of goingto a salon in dearborn tomorrow and applying for a desk job. the Good Lord knows ive had experience with salon work in my day and i could put the money toward the wedding... i miss you susannah. would it be cool if i just dropped by one of these fine days? i would call first of course just in case youre in the middle of some orgy with henry rollins and artichoke hearts. oh. and i insist that you add stompstompstomp to your friends list because the kid has an iq of like 150 and hes brilliant to the core. by the way, jerry, if youre reading this, i think sara(h) is just about the perfect girl i envisioned for you and i hope you two are together for a long long time. shes sweet, shes funny, shes gorgeous, shes smart and i wish and hope and pray that you two will be happy and take care of each other for a long time. its quite a challenge finding someone as cool as her and possibly even more of a challenge to find someone as cool as you. you guys are lucky and i know you are aware of that so i wont preach, but even her MOM seems cool and this is more vital than it sounds.
very well. enough with the happy crap. time to go wash my face, slather on my makeup and go kick some self-righteous ass.
love to everyone i love you all. soosie the quzie, write back, stompie, write back, obsolete model, write back..
xoxo times infinity plus one,
annmarie the infamous dream machine