Spencer! at the Minibar

[disarm_d]

I'm at my parents' house for a break in between exams, so I'm on my laptop for the first time in a while, and I was going through old tabs. I've had this one picture open forever, and I can't even remember why I had it open in the first place, but when I looked at it today, it made me want a fic where

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[sparkfrost]

I would read the hell out that story, and probably cry my eyes out as well. :( My devotion to bandom is unaltered and unalterable, but lately its been making me quite sad. Sigh.

[disarm_d]

RPS fandoms are hard!! It's kind of only hit me in the last few months how sad the Panic split is. Every time I see old videos from when they were a foursome, I really miss the old days, :(

[slowlikewine]

This. This exactly. To the nth power.

[disarm_d]

It's weird to be mourning it so much after the fact, but I'm totally bummed about the split! :(

[slowlikewine]

I'm bummed about the split, but it's more of an old ache now. I get a little pang in my chest when I listen to the music they did together and look at the pictures of all of them smiling and laughing together. What REALLY bums me out, though, is how so many of my LJ friends seem to be slowly moving on from bandom. That almost hurts worse b/c it's a slow drift that's ongoing. At least the split was quick, ya know? I mean, I get it; people move on and their tastes change and we all knew it couldn't have lasted forever. Doesn't keep me from getting a little achey when I think about the HCT and the year or so that came before and after.

I'm consoling myself by reading old stories of yours. And eating Special K Red Berries.

[disarm_d]

I think the thing that made me saddest is that the split kind of turned bandom into the kind of fandom that I have less interest in. The type of fandom that grabs me the most is one where there are a bunch of people who all seem like really good friends & where there are endless possibilities for different pairings. I was so drawn to Panic! because there were so many different things to write about! And they all had interesting interactions with different people in the band, and yeah I always thought that Spencer and Brendon were the most compatible based on how I pictured their personalities, but it didn't mean that I didn't want to read about other pairings. I can sometimes read in fandoms where there is the ONE OTP, but it's definitely not something that I'm interested in writing in. I don't even know why! It's just-- idk, it's like if the pairing has already been predetermined it's not as interesting to me. That's part of the reason why I could never really get into the American idol fandom. I remember when I first was

[slowlikewine]

The cereal helps. The pics of Brendon and Spencer in the studio with John Feldman help A LOT. As done my shining optimism that one day soon the boys will all find their way back to each other and go get some burgers or something. And tweet about it.

[slowlikewine]

Totally off topic, but...

I've stumbled across a fic you wrote back in May of 2007, Our Mortality Cuts to the Heart, and it's written in the same universe as another fic called Afraid of Change, Afraid of Staying the Same. When I clicked on the link to the second fic, though, it said it was a protected entry. Neither fic is listed in your masterlist, so I was just wondering if there was any reason for that. I'd be really interested in reading the second fic if I could.

[disarm_d]

You should be able to read it now. Both fics were locked, but someone emailed and asked to read Our Morality so I unlocked it for a bit and forgot to lock it again.

[slowlikewine]

Thanks for unlocking that for me. I just finished reading it (why did I not put this comment there? idk), and while I'm sure you had your reasons for locking those two stories in the first place, I gotta tell ya, I don't think I've never seen that premise handled that well. Stories like that break my heart, but I think that they can offer a really interesting point of view that we don't usually get in slash fandoms (not everyone is 100% okay with being gay/having gay friends. this is a fact). So often that material is covered in a really bad-ficcy way that makes me cringe, so it was really nice to see it handled in such a competent and thoughtful way here. Or, there, actually, but you know what I meant.