Rejections, the funk, and werewolf fiction.
So I've been having trouble when it comes to writing these damn job applications lately. I've written a lot, and I'm getting better and better at them - but I've sort of hit a wall, and it's been almost a week and I haven't been able to scramble over it.
I suppose part of it is to do with the rejections - in fact given that this started last Friday, and I was almost motivated to get to it again when some more rejections came in today - I'm pretty damn sure it's just the rejections. 15 last friday. So far as I have checked, another 6 today.
Bob (John C McGinley) from Office Space was right about Fridays. The industry obviously is of the belief that there is less chance of an incident if you get bad news in jobs on a Friday.
I know I should just get over them, and on with it. Easier said than done.
It seems that the funk of a slump on the job hunting front has been effecting more than just writing apps - I can't seem to do any work on my game or the website. I had hoped to have the authentication process sorted by now, and an upgrade of content based on that. I had also hoped to have summarized the new additions/changes to such an effect that I could playtest them this weekend - but the funk is effecting my ability to do that work too.
So of course along with this funk comes procrastination - and this time it's been for Werewolf fiction. I've written two pieces, planned a third, and have thoughts for a fourth.
The first is a deep look into how fucked up my Cam character is. I didn't think it especially riveting or great, but it did somewhat freak me out when writing it. I knew that I was going to deal with a somewhat adult and deranged topic - but as I was writing it I felt like all those sexual predators I despise, loathe and hate (naming no names, but some of you may be able to pick a few). Partially because it deals with what is tantamount to rape, and enhanced by the fact that the character knows it's wrong, but for the wrong reasons, and essentially is unconnected to the act. Gave me chills after re-reading it to think that I had written that.
The next piece (technically the next three) is the background and part of the story arc Tim and I had planned for the Armidale Forsaken game. Just in case you didn't know, Tim couldn't deal with the bureaucracy and the tools playing here, and walked away. His replacement decided to end Tim's plot quickly - which meant dropping it entirely and railroading characters who tried to investigate it further. Now while Tim's plot was influenced heavily by old school werewolf, it was still a brilliant story - and I think it needed to be told. So now I have written it up as a story in three parts - the first of which is called "The Ravenous" and with any luck will appear in the next BTS.
So while I am feeling down and unproductive because of the job hunting front, the procrastination fiction front is making me feel accomplished and happy. You'd think these would cancel out for a mellow okay - but no, instead I have swings. Ain't live grand?
I suppose part of it is to do with the rejections - in fact given that this started last Friday, and I was almost motivated to get to it again when some more rejections came in today - I'm pretty damn sure it's just the rejections. 15 last friday. So far as I have checked, another 6 today.
Bob (John C McGinley) from Office Space was right about Fridays. The industry obviously is of the belief that there is less chance of an incident if you get bad news in jobs on a Friday.
I know I should just get over them, and on with it. Easier said than done.
It seems that the funk of a slump on the job hunting front has been effecting more than just writing apps - I can't seem to do any work on my game or the website. I had hoped to have the authentication process sorted by now, and an upgrade of content based on that. I had also hoped to have summarized the new additions/changes to such an effect that I could playtest them this weekend - but the funk is effecting my ability to do that work too.
So of course along with this funk comes procrastination - and this time it's been for Werewolf fiction. I've written two pieces, planned a third, and have thoughts for a fourth.
The first is a deep look into how fucked up my Cam character is. I didn't think it especially riveting or great, but it did somewhat freak me out when writing it. I knew that I was going to deal with a somewhat adult and deranged topic - but as I was writing it I felt like all those sexual predators I despise, loathe and hate (naming no names, but some of you may be able to pick a few). Partially because it deals with what is tantamount to rape, and enhanced by the fact that the character knows it's wrong, but for the wrong reasons, and essentially is unconnected to the act. Gave me chills after re-reading it to think that I had written that.
The next piece (technically the next three) is the background and part of the story arc Tim and I had planned for the Armidale Forsaken game. Just in case you didn't know, Tim couldn't deal with the bureaucracy and the tools playing here, and walked away. His replacement decided to end Tim's plot quickly - which meant dropping it entirely and railroading characters who tried to investigate it further. Now while Tim's plot was influenced heavily by old school werewolf, it was still a brilliant story - and I think it needed to be told. So now I have written it up as a story in three parts - the first of which is called "The Ravenous" and with any luck will appear in the next BTS.
So while I am feeling down and unproductive because of the job hunting front, the procrastination fiction front is making me feel accomplished and happy. You'd think these would cancel out for a mellow okay - but no, instead I have swings. Ain't live grand?