post number ten
last night i had a dream that RC was related to....huh.....someone i ll refer to as OR. anyway OR was in my life about four three years, no four years ago and i broke his heart, twice. that was a really bad thing to do. i feel terrible about it and i wish i could take it all back. we all know that its not possible. anyway, RC did not know about anything in the dream. OR's sister had come up to me and given me a hug. it was odd. i had not thought about OR not even remotely in a long time. is it not terrible when our pasts come back to haunt us???? i think that karma should just let somethings slid once in a while, right???
so this saturday will be super busy, but sunday will be super lonely. with RC on his road trip i will be left alone to entertain myself. im not really looking forward to that, at all. alone is my last thing i want to be. thins is where some friends would come in handy........any takers???
everyone is in a pissy mood here at work and frankly i dont want to be around that today. i had some horrid coffee this morning, but the sprinkle covered dough-nut totally made up for it. good job dough-nut picking up the slack!!!!
so i noticed that some of my LJ friends have been "too busy" to update, so i kind of feel like im talking to myself......that s cool, i do it all the time. i have been preoccupied with browsing through odd communities. i was also asked by a friend i have not seen since high school to open a myspace. well i dont have one now, i really never was interested in one but i must admit that lately i have thought about it. maybe, i dont know.
so the next big date for me is going to be late january. i ll be turning twenty-five. im excited!!! i think i would like to go to san fransisco. i have already hinted it to RC. i think it will be fun. i have been looking up shows around the date but nothing interesting yet.
okay enough of this random stuff. i think i ll keep surfing the net.