Human beings must age, but not all humans must grow and that I find is an invariably unargued truth. As I approach thirty years on this planet that we call earth, I seek to find some semblance of order in my life. My twenties were a time of unweathered and rough silence and darkness to where my thirties I see as a beacon of life. I don't think that ( Read more... )

I find it entirely true that sometimes you have to step away from what you were to find out what you are. There ae so many doubts that I have thinking about coming into my own that I just can't seem to keep a good handle on what i want out of life. The unfortunate answer to the question of what do you want?  is EVERYTHING! I'm no fool, I realize ( Read more... )

... I decided to do exactly nothing at work until 5pm.

... I decided that I am worth it!

... I went to subway and had a Sub of the Day

... I cried in my car at a sappy song.

... I discussed with a friend the intricate nuances of plot, cinematography, and character development in the Butterfly Effect.

... I am mentally still on vacation.

... I took ( Read more... )

Last night I had a somewhat intervention at a bar. Not because of my drinking (seriously, how could people do an intervention at a bar about drinking), but a life intervention. My friends (and Tippy is in town) looked at me and challenged me to see if I was honestly, truly, happy. I had to give back the default response "Of course I'm happy, ( Read more... )

 I'm pretty sure that I'm absolutely insane, but I'm going back to school to get another Bachelors. This time I'm getting a BFA in Culinary Arts. Yeah, I know, crazy. But, while my life is stable and I have a stable job, no children, and no other attachments (I just made myself sound like a vacuum cleaner), I figure I'd go back and persue a passion ( Read more... )

it's amazing how your life can go up and down like a roller coaster, and boy am I riding it. I have a great boyfriend. He's like frosted flakes. He owns a house, he has a great job, , his mother likes me,  and so do his sisters (all four of them), and likewise with my parents. Tequila and Ocean equally adore him, as well as me thinking he is best ( Read more... )

I don't agree with that. To love someone more than you love yourself is to put yourself below the other person, always tending to their needs and never taking care of yours. Loving someone more than you love yourself leaves the person loving in need of the person loved. And I am of the thought that people should never NEED other people. People ( Read more... )

Sometimes the best way to express yourself is thru song. After a few months of slight emotional turmoil and a house cleaning of my peers, I've adopted this particular attitude for those around me that are (as Erin puts it) useless human beings. You can thank Joe Dee Messina for the song, and I can thank the useless human beings for the new attitude ( Read more... )

Thank goodness for the weekend. This was officially my first week as a CPS Social Worker. It was a good week. I enjoyed my ability to make decisions finally on the cases that I have inherited. I also am anticipating the first time I get assigned a brand new case. But as for the first week, it was wonderful ( Read more... )

When rain is falling and the skies are grey, I can only think of one thing... sleep. On days like today, I want nothing more than to curl up on my fabulous red, Ikea sofa with a good book and some vanilla tea. Unfortunately, I have family home supervised visits that I must complete before returning to the class-room portion of the academy next ( Read more... )