oh hi LJ
i don't write in here anymore..but there isn't much to do at 5AM when you're working security. sigh. its also the end of daylight savings, so it really feels like 6AM, and i was supposed to be off at 2:30 but things got kind of messed up and now here i am. haha. more money but reallyyyy i like sleep a lot more.
i was just about to recap everything that has happened to me so far this semester, but then i got nauseous just thinking about it, so maybe i won't. a brief list will do
-boyfriend
-cyst removed from tailbone
-torn ACL
-home for 10 days (during midterm week, obv) to recover from ACL and find out that surgery is almost guaranteed in december
-no lacrosse until probably next fall.
-madd homework to make up
-break up with boyfriend because of all this (before people get nervous, i broke up with him). we are on great terms, and it never got serious anyway because i wouldn't let it- i discovered i am not one for relationships right now - or anytime soon - and thankfully we are still close but i don't have to stress anymore: p.s. is that weird? it seems like everyone else is crazy about hooking up and finding relationships and i can't stand the thought of being with someone else? haha. i think i'm weird. i just really love my independence and feeling good. other people make me feel stressed and worried because i wonder how they feel etc etc and i just don't need that. i don't even feel lonely. i don't mind doing my own thing and not being obligated or attached to something else. i know that will change, especially if i find someone that really wows me, but i'm not looking for it. i wouldn't find it here anyway. UM people...ehhh. not my style.
-unsure of major, considering double major-double minor, which is like doing a triple major, which means summer classes up the waz and tons of credits every semester. i'm not sure if this is worth it since i really want to minor in sports medicine, but i don't necessarily want to be a doctor. in fact, i'm not sure what i'd do with a sports med minor- its just what i'm really interested in. the classes sound great: fitness & nutrition, sports psych, kinesiology, exercise phys, etc. i'm thinking of pursuing this kind of deal in grad school but i just don't know right now. its weird to be passionate about something but not know what to do with it. maybe i'll figure it out. i'm having trouble figuring anything out anymore though. existential crisis 24/7.
hm. other than that, i guess things are pretty okay. i mean, relatively speaking. its hard to stay positive when you're constantly in pain and frustrated that you can't just do your thing. plus i hate the sidelines. it sucks sitting when everyone else plays. kfldajkfla
last weekend the lax team went to tallahassee, which is about 8 hours away. think of it this way: miami is at the bottom of the state, and tally is up at the top, in the middle of the panhandle. its a trek. we won all 3 games though and it was a fun bonding experience. i hated not playing, like i said, but i'm glad i went anyway.
woo now its 5:30. only an hour and a half left and then i can sleeeeeep. i really didn't want to work a 2nd half tonight. lame. on the bright side, i am practically finished with my philosophy paper, which means i won't have a crazy day tomorrow trying to get things done. i like relaxing sundays filled with food and football. divine.
speaking of food and football, i am so excited for thanksgiving. i can't wait to go home again. i miss it.
mmm.
welp. thats all i got.
maybe i'll write again someday?
i was just about to recap everything that has happened to me so far this semester, but then i got nauseous just thinking about it, so maybe i won't. a brief list will do
-boyfriend
-cyst removed from tailbone
-torn ACL
-home for 10 days (during midterm week, obv) to recover from ACL and find out that surgery is almost guaranteed in december
-no lacrosse until probably next fall.
-madd homework to make up
-break up with boyfriend because of all this (before people get nervous, i broke up with him). we are on great terms, and it never got serious anyway because i wouldn't let it- i discovered i am not one for relationships right now - or anytime soon - and thankfully we are still close but i don't have to stress anymore: p.s. is that weird? it seems like everyone else is crazy about hooking up and finding relationships and i can't stand the thought of being with someone else? haha. i think i'm weird. i just really love my independence and feeling good. other people make me feel stressed and worried because i wonder how they feel etc etc and i just don't need that. i don't even feel lonely. i don't mind doing my own thing and not being obligated or attached to something else. i know that will change, especially if i find someone that really wows me, but i'm not looking for it. i wouldn't find it here anyway. UM people...ehhh. not my style.
-unsure of major, considering double major-double minor, which is like doing a triple major, which means summer classes up the waz and tons of credits every semester. i'm not sure if this is worth it since i really want to minor in sports medicine, but i don't necessarily want to be a doctor. in fact, i'm not sure what i'd do with a sports med minor- its just what i'm really interested in. the classes sound great: fitness & nutrition, sports psych, kinesiology, exercise phys, etc. i'm thinking of pursuing this kind of deal in grad school but i just don't know right now. its weird to be passionate about something but not know what to do with it. maybe i'll figure it out. i'm having trouble figuring anything out anymore though. existential crisis 24/7.
hm. other than that, i guess things are pretty okay. i mean, relatively speaking. its hard to stay positive when you're constantly in pain and frustrated that you can't just do your thing. plus i hate the sidelines. it sucks sitting when everyone else plays. kfldajkfla
last weekend the lax team went to tallahassee, which is about 8 hours away. think of it this way: miami is at the bottom of the state, and tally is up at the top, in the middle of the panhandle. its a trek. we won all 3 games though and it was a fun bonding experience. i hated not playing, like i said, but i'm glad i went anyway.
woo now its 5:30. only an hour and a half left and then i can sleeeeeep. i really didn't want to work a 2nd half tonight. lame. on the bright side, i am practically finished with my philosophy paper, which means i won't have a crazy day tomorrow trying to get things done. i like relaxing sundays filled with food and football. divine.
speaking of food and football, i am so excited for thanksgiving. i can't wait to go home again. i miss it.
mmm.
welp. thats all i got.
maybe i'll write again someday?