Inspiration from everything.
I've realized if we want something, we can get it.
Anything.
A person, an object, to go somewhere, to do something.
You can do it.
It's all up to you.
No one else.
I never thought in a million years I could get someone as gorgeouse as Pank [ Yes, he was beautiful and awesome]
But I did.
Because I wanted it.
If you want it, you have all the power in the world to get it.
So you want to travel?
Do it.
Save up. Make plans. Work for it.
We all get lazy, no doubt.
All we need is to be pushed.
And we complain when someone does [ex. Parents teachers etc.]
But when you get an A on that next test,
who should you be thanking?
I was talking to my mom about my schedule for next year.
Its going to be hectic. Full. Challenging.
But the thing is I know I can do it.
I have to potential to do it.
I just need to be pushed.
So I told her "Mom, next year...I'm going to need you to push me."
And she said "Alright"
So I'm not worried.
And in some cases, we have to push people.
You may not see it as pushing; You may see it as encouraging.
Example: Krysteen started talking about trying out for officer at the beginning of the year and I totally knew she could do it with ease. So I constantly told her "Dude...you have to do it. You know you would make it." & "Ting I know you could do it, you really should."
Pushing. But in a nice way.
It was for her better.
And now here she is, her try out is on Monday.
She showed me her dance and it was amazing.
Just like I said, anyone has the potential to do anything they want, they just have to apply themselves and do it.
Don't concentrate on this bullcrap teen drama shit.
All that crap literally ruined this school year for me.
You go to school to get the best education avaliable to you,
not to talk crap, judge people, be in a click, or anything like that.
It wasnt till recently did I become fully comfertable with myself.
I'm not skinny, I'm not fat.
I'm just me.
I'm not gothic I'm not preppy.
I'm just me.
So I dont shower for weeks at a time, get over it.
Thats just how I am, and if you dont like it, well I dont think your opinion matters.
If it were up to me, I would wear the same pants all week and possible the same shirt.
I literally dont care what other people think of me.
The only reason we dress up and do things of the sort is to impress people.
Because we feel the need to have a boyfriend and or girlfriend all the time so we are constantly trying to look good for them.
Silly.
The person I'm looking for would think it was cute that I didnt shower alot...and that I'm constantly listening to music, and I always have the undieing urge to dance no metter who is watching, that I love math, wouldnt make fun of me for listening to the same song 10 million times, and that my feet smell worse than a hot dead wet dog.
Some people want to give up on everything; On life itself.
Been there, done that, remember the tears.
Look, you need to find your "Zen"
Your "Zen" is something you can do that just toally brings you back down, something that helps you clear your mind.
For me, that would be
1) Riding my bike
2) Dancing
3) Being with Joel
But each thing has a different purpose.
# 1 is mostly everyday. It gets me away from the stresses of everyday life. If I can just get on my bike, blast my music, and ride anywhere I want, I dont need anything else. Thats brings me to where I need to be. My "Zen".
# 2 is when I am pissed. When I get super mad, I just dance. I blast the Venga Boys and just run around and dance like a mad woman. Without a care in the world. About 30 mins - an hour later, I feel great. Stress and anger, GONE.
# 3 cure for anything. I get Joel withdrawls. He is my inspiration for everything I do. Every decision I make. He is my world. Just talking to him on the phone is fun.
If you ever feel down, find your zen.
I was talking to my dad and he said that if he could just go outside and water the plants, watch the sun go down, and smoke a cigar, he was happy.
That was his zen.
He cant do this everyday, and I guess thats for the better, because the less you do it the more rewarding it is when you do.
I'm spending the night in with my dad because tonight is his last night of vacation, and I would feel really guilty leaving him alone [Josh is out so its just my dad and I].
I helped him cook dinner, and when him and I went to HEB earlier we got this awesome cheesecake [Love of my life] so we are going to gourge in that together after I finish updating.
And I think I will suggest watching a movie or something. Just because he is kewl like that.
Take care kids.
Have a wonderful weekend.
_Carly
Anything.
A person, an object, to go somewhere, to do something.
You can do it.
It's all up to you.
No one else.
I never thought in a million years I could get someone as gorgeouse as Pank [ Yes, he was beautiful and awesome]
But I did.
Because I wanted it.
If you want it, you have all the power in the world to get it.
So you want to travel?
Do it.
Save up. Make plans. Work for it.
We all get lazy, no doubt.
All we need is to be pushed.
And we complain when someone does [ex. Parents teachers etc.]
But when you get an A on that next test,
who should you be thanking?
I was talking to my mom about my schedule for next year.
Its going to be hectic. Full. Challenging.
But the thing is I know I can do it.
I have to potential to do it.
I just need to be pushed.
So I told her "Mom, next year...I'm going to need you to push me."
And she said "Alright"
So I'm not worried.
And in some cases, we have to push people.
You may not see it as pushing; You may see it as encouraging.
Example: Krysteen started talking about trying out for officer at the beginning of the year and I totally knew she could do it with ease. So I constantly told her "Dude...you have to do it. You know you would make it." & "Ting I know you could do it, you really should."
Pushing. But in a nice way.
It was for her better.
And now here she is, her try out is on Monday.
She showed me her dance and it was amazing.
Just like I said, anyone has the potential to do anything they want, they just have to apply themselves and do it.
Don't concentrate on this bullcrap teen drama shit.
All that crap literally ruined this school year for me.
You go to school to get the best education avaliable to you,
not to talk crap, judge people, be in a click, or anything like that.
It wasnt till recently did I become fully comfertable with myself.
I'm not skinny, I'm not fat.
I'm just me.
I'm not gothic I'm not preppy.
I'm just me.
So I dont shower for weeks at a time, get over it.
Thats just how I am, and if you dont like it, well I dont think your opinion matters.
If it were up to me, I would wear the same pants all week and possible the same shirt.
I literally dont care what other people think of me.
The only reason we dress up and do things of the sort is to impress people.
Because we feel the need to have a boyfriend and or girlfriend all the time so we are constantly trying to look good for them.
Silly.
The person I'm looking for would think it was cute that I didnt shower alot...and that I'm constantly listening to music, and I always have the undieing urge to dance no metter who is watching, that I love math, wouldnt make fun of me for listening to the same song 10 million times, and that my feet smell worse than a hot dead wet dog.
Some people want to give up on everything; On life itself.
Been there, done that, remember the tears.
Look, you need to find your "Zen"
Your "Zen" is something you can do that just toally brings you back down, something that helps you clear your mind.
For me, that would be
1) Riding my bike
2) Dancing
3) Being with Joel
But each thing has a different purpose.
# 1 is mostly everyday. It gets me away from the stresses of everyday life. If I can just get on my bike, blast my music, and ride anywhere I want, I dont need anything else. Thats brings me to where I need to be. My "Zen".
# 2 is when I am pissed. When I get super mad, I just dance. I blast the Venga Boys and just run around and dance like a mad woman. Without a care in the world. About 30 mins - an hour later, I feel great. Stress and anger, GONE.
# 3 cure for anything. I get Joel withdrawls. He is my inspiration for everything I do. Every decision I make. He is my world. Just talking to him on the phone is fun.
If you ever feel down, find your zen.
I was talking to my dad and he said that if he could just go outside and water the plants, watch the sun go down, and smoke a cigar, he was happy.
That was his zen.
He cant do this everyday, and I guess thats for the better, because the less you do it the more rewarding it is when you do.
I'm spending the night in with my dad because tonight is his last night of vacation, and I would feel really guilty leaving him alone [Josh is out so its just my dad and I].
I helped him cook dinner, and when him and I went to HEB earlier we got this awesome cheesecake [Love of my life] so we are going to gourge in that together after I finish updating.
And I think I will suggest watching a movie or something. Just because he is kewl like that.
Take care kids.
Have a wonderful weekend.
_Carly