My tears will dry on their own
It's my last night here in Chicago and I have mixed feelings. I'm excited about getting back to work (believe it or not), I'm excited to see my roommates. I'm excited to see my Boston friends. I'm excited to sleep in my queen bed again. I can't wait to have my privacy back.
I'm also sad. I'm sad because I'll miss my brother and I'll miss my parents. I just really felt like I was helping my Dad out so much by being home. I know he manages on his own but there's so much he probably wishes he could do and so much that he can't do because he has to take care of my Mom. *sigh. My brother left this evening with Andy and I just suddenly felt REALLY sad. I can't explain why.
After all the family left (we had our family BBQ with some cousins) I went out for a drive. I picked up a pack of cigarettes (I've been smoking on and off since I've been in Boston--quit a couple of times) and drove by my old high school and around Winettka. I was listening to my Amy Winehouse CD--mostly "Tears Dry On Their Own" and "Love Is A Losing Game," two of my favorites on the album--just thinking about my parents and my Mom. I miss the ability to go out for a drive. Sure, in Boston I could just go for a walk...but a drive in the cool summer evening is just so exhilerating. I love the breeze, the way the air smells. It just helps clear my mind. Anyway...now I'm sitting around bummed.
At least the rest of today was fun. I went into the city to meet Rebecca and her friend Sylvia in Milennium Park. We were supposed to go to the Taste, but they did that yesterday (thankfully) so we wound up just walking down Michigan Avenue and eating a nice lunch at Giordonos. After that I went to meet Cassie at her super cute apartment on Dearborn (sp?). We chatted for a bit then my brother and Andy picked me up and we drove back to Glencoe.
We helped get ready for the evening's BBQ. It was nice to have the family together. Some of those cousins I guess I hadn't seen in a few years because they were in high school and college already! AND HUGE! Not fat...just...as one of my Iowa relatives so eloquently put it one time..."GROWED UP." I was amazed! I think my Mom was happy to have the family there as well, though she has pretty much the same set of emotions for everything that happens so it's a bit hard to tell. It was nice, nonetheless. I'm definitely going to try and fly out more often. I might even book a trip back to Chicago in a couple of months. We'll see.
Last night I met up with Fallon, Caroline, Steve and some of Fallon's coworkers to see "Transformers" at Northbrook Court. (WOW...I had not been to that theater in AGES). The movie was surprisingly good--even Fallon and Caroline--who like a lot of chick flicks generally--enjoyed it. It had everything--action, comedy, romance...and AMAZING F/x! It was a great surprise and a lot of fun. Sure, it had some corny dialog but overall--ace movie.
Tomorrow I am going to do some laundry and try and get to the airport by 2:30. My flight is at 3:50 something back to Boston. It was nice to be home--sad in many respects--but nice.
Oh...completely off the subject--here are some Amy Winehouse videos for you all to check out on YouTube. Some are from her first album, some are from her new album. I posted the video to new single, "Tears Dry On Their Own" up top but here are some others. Look at how she looks in the first four videos compared to how she looks in "Tears Dry On Their Own." Poor Amy...so much healthier back then--but no less talented.
Fuck Me Pumps
Stronger Than Me
In My Bed
Take The Box
Rehab
You Know I'm No Good
Back To Black
I'm also sad. I'm sad because I'll miss my brother and I'll miss my parents. I just really felt like I was helping my Dad out so much by being home. I know he manages on his own but there's so much he probably wishes he could do and so much that he can't do because he has to take care of my Mom. *sigh. My brother left this evening with Andy and I just suddenly felt REALLY sad. I can't explain why.
After all the family left (we had our family BBQ with some cousins) I went out for a drive. I picked up a pack of cigarettes (I've been smoking on and off since I've been in Boston--quit a couple of times) and drove by my old high school and around Winettka. I was listening to my Amy Winehouse CD--mostly "Tears Dry On Their Own" and "Love Is A Losing Game," two of my favorites on the album--just thinking about my parents and my Mom. I miss the ability to go out for a drive. Sure, in Boston I could just go for a walk...but a drive in the cool summer evening is just so exhilerating. I love the breeze, the way the air smells. It just helps clear my mind. Anyway...now I'm sitting around bummed.
At least the rest of today was fun. I went into the city to meet Rebecca and her friend Sylvia in Milennium Park. We were supposed to go to the Taste, but they did that yesterday (thankfully) so we wound up just walking down Michigan Avenue and eating a nice lunch at Giordonos. After that I went to meet Cassie at her super cute apartment on Dearborn (sp?). We chatted for a bit then my brother and Andy picked me up and we drove back to Glencoe.
We helped get ready for the evening's BBQ. It was nice to have the family together. Some of those cousins I guess I hadn't seen in a few years because they were in high school and college already! AND HUGE! Not fat...just...as one of my Iowa relatives so eloquently put it one time..."GROWED UP." I was amazed! I think my Mom was happy to have the family there as well, though she has pretty much the same set of emotions for everything that happens so it's a bit hard to tell. It was nice, nonetheless. I'm definitely going to try and fly out more often. I might even book a trip back to Chicago in a couple of months. We'll see.
Last night I met up with Fallon, Caroline, Steve and some of Fallon's coworkers to see "Transformers" at Northbrook Court. (WOW...I had not been to that theater in AGES). The movie was surprisingly good--even Fallon and Caroline--who like a lot of chick flicks generally--enjoyed it. It had everything--action, comedy, romance...and AMAZING F/x! It was a great surprise and a lot of fun. Sure, it had some corny dialog but overall--ace movie.
Tomorrow I am going to do some laundry and try and get to the airport by 2:30. My flight is at 3:50 something back to Boston. It was nice to be home--sad in many respects--but nice.
Oh...completely off the subject--here are some Amy Winehouse videos for you all to check out on YouTube. Some are from her first album, some are from her new album. I posted the video to new single, "Tears Dry On Their Own" up top but here are some others. Look at how she looks in the first four videos compared to how she looks in "Tears Dry On Their Own." Poor Amy...so much healthier back then--but no less talented.
Fuck Me Pumps
Stronger Than Me
In My Bed
Take The Box
Rehab
You Know I'm No Good
Back To Black