Who am I?
I went outside and checked the mail about 5 times today before the mailbox was actually filled with mail. On the 5th walk to to the mailbox at the end of my driveway, I noticed that the rusted, red fire hydrant in the front of my yard that my dog always urinates on is now yellow and orange. How long has it been yellow and orange? I'm assuming not too long, but then again, how often have I looked at the fire hydrant in, oh, say, the past week? Am I really that unobservant? Or did it just get painted today? The other day I looked back through a lot of my "Journal entries" ... I realized a few things:
1- I use the "?" and "!" buttons way too much.
2- I whine a lot about stupid teenager crap.
3- I'm very paranoid when there is no need to be.
4- I come off as "depressed" a lot of the time.
5- I type " ... " a lot.
6- I use "big" words and long sentences to explain things that could be explained in a few short words.
7- I ask a lot of questions.
I'm paranoid, overly excited, unnecessarily lengthy with words, I have too many unfinished thoughts, I ask (too) many questions, I whine when there's no need to, and it would seem as though I almost "pretend" to be depressed ... What exactly does that say about me?
Interpretation really pisses me off. It's quite the detrimental thing. Particularly when I'm left to interpret something, 'cuz I almost always interpret things the "wrong" way. Who said interpretation was left up to the individual? I'm sure whoever did make that statement was completely unaware of the dangers they were setting into motion.
I think I disappoint a lot of people with what I believe in. It's become really obvious to me this week. I'm on the fence with a lot of issues, mainly because I don't know what the future holds, and I think a lot of people see that as a weakness. "Gee wiz, Chole, make up your damn mind!" Maybe I should, but I'm not up to it just yet. I don't have the answers I need in order to hop off the fence onto one side or the other.
You'd think the summer would alleviate slipping between being above all the "drama" and getting involved with it, but it doesn't. In a way it kinda makes it worse. Communication is far more scarce, so things don't get "cleared up" as quickly, leaving much to be speculated.
Speculation; yet another dangerous thing. seems to me that a lot of words ending in "ation" are dangerous, eh? Then again, there's some good words ending in "ation," such as "creation," "dedication," "elation," etc. I think I made that last one up ... Maybe not.
Something's gotta change again
I'm losing, my inspirations gone, oh no oh no
Seeing through some different eyes
I can't find, my medications failed, again again
I can feel a change
I can feel, can you feel it
See it on the street watching heat from the pavement
Cause I'm here, ready to take it all here
Everything's feeling unclear
I wish it was raining
Cause I hate every beautiful day
Faces in the crowd
Fake smiles for miles
My imitations wrong of them again
Trapped inside this cheap hotel
Bored as hell turing the channels 'round
I can feel a change
I can feel, can you feel it
See it on the street watching heat from the pavement
Cause I'm here, ready to take it all here
Everything's feeling unclear
I wish it was raining
Cause I hate every beautiful day
I can feel a change
I can feel, can you feel it
See it on the street watching heat from the pavement
I can feel a change
I can feel, can you feel it
I'm not the same, not the same lost my feeling
All I know I'll never know
All I know I'll never know
Cause I'm here, ready to take it all here
Everything's feeling unclear
I wish it was raining
Cause I hate every beautiful day
Every beautiful day
Every beautiful day
Every beautiful day
1- I use the "?" and "!" buttons way too much.
2- I whine a lot about stupid teenager crap.
3- I'm very paranoid when there is no need to be.
4- I come off as "depressed" a lot of the time.
5- I type " ... " a lot.
6- I use "big" words and long sentences to explain things that could be explained in a few short words.
7- I ask a lot of questions.
I'm paranoid, overly excited, unnecessarily lengthy with words, I have too many unfinished thoughts, I ask (too) many questions, I whine when there's no need to, and it would seem as though I almost "pretend" to be depressed ... What exactly does that say about me?
Interpretation really pisses me off. It's quite the detrimental thing. Particularly when I'm left to interpret something, 'cuz I almost always interpret things the "wrong" way. Who said interpretation was left up to the individual? I'm sure whoever did make that statement was completely unaware of the dangers they were setting into motion.
I think I disappoint a lot of people with what I believe in. It's become really obvious to me this week. I'm on the fence with a lot of issues, mainly because I don't know what the future holds, and I think a lot of people see that as a weakness. "Gee wiz, Chole, make up your damn mind!" Maybe I should, but I'm not up to it just yet. I don't have the answers I need in order to hop off the fence onto one side or the other.
You'd think the summer would alleviate slipping between being above all the "drama" and getting involved with it, but it doesn't. In a way it kinda makes it worse. Communication is far more scarce, so things don't get "cleared up" as quickly, leaving much to be speculated.
Speculation; yet another dangerous thing. seems to me that a lot of words ending in "ation" are dangerous, eh? Then again, there's some good words ending in "ation," such as "creation," "dedication," "elation," etc. I think I made that last one up ... Maybe not.
Something's gotta change again
I'm losing, my inspirations gone, oh no oh no
Seeing through some different eyes
I can't find, my medications failed, again again
I can feel a change
I can feel, can you feel it
See it on the street watching heat from the pavement
Cause I'm here, ready to take it all here
Everything's feeling unclear
I wish it was raining
Cause I hate every beautiful day
Faces in the crowd
Fake smiles for miles
My imitations wrong of them again
Trapped inside this cheap hotel
Bored as hell turing the channels 'round
I can feel a change
I can feel, can you feel it
See it on the street watching heat from the pavement
Cause I'm here, ready to take it all here
Everything's feeling unclear
I wish it was raining
Cause I hate every beautiful day
I can feel a change
I can feel, can you feel it
See it on the street watching heat from the pavement
I can feel a change
I can feel, can you feel it
I'm not the same, not the same lost my feeling
All I know I'll never know
All I know I'll never know
Cause I'm here, ready to take it all here
Everything's feeling unclear
I wish it was raining
Cause I hate every beautiful day
Every beautiful day
Every beautiful day
Every beautiful day