many many things to say
SO... i recently got into durarara!! (OTL OTL OTL another fandom??).
there's a light novel and a manga and an anime for the series, but i've only just finished the anime and read some of the manga. i guess it's a bit manry with all the action and drama and curvy girls, but after watching gurren lagann and sengoku basara, nothing seems too manry anymore, LOL.
ANYWAYS, there was this one quote from episode 2(ish?) that really kind of struck me, and i thought i would like to share it with you guys. even though most of you are from kpop fandom and probably aren't too interested in this stuff, but still~
“the world isn't as cruel as you take it to be.”
it's really simple and not really anything new, but sometimes when i'm in the shower or laying awake at night, i think a lot. with all my capslock and fangirly flailing and screaming i might kind of seem like i don't think at all... BUT SOMETIMES I DO, srsly ಥ益ಥ. i'm just always too lazy to put any of these thoughts out anywhere because putting these things into words is hard for me and i have a short attention span (i've been meaning to make this post for like three weeks now lolol)
right, yeah, so i was thinking. i'm seventeen years old. i'm still really into anime, manga, video games, pretty kpop idols... stuff that a lot of people would probably consider childish, especially for someone who's going to be a legal adult in like eight months (AAH (;゜ロ゜)..). i don't mean to offend anyone around my age/older by saying this, but i know i've met plenty of people (and my parents hur hur) who think it's about time i start growing up. i guess i kind of should, though; i'm so irresponsible it's not even funny OTL
but there's something about these "childish" things that i feel people should appreciate more. you hear all those theories about how maybe the little kids/babies are the ones who have everything right in their untainted minds, or something, right. i feel like some animes, mangas, etc teach really valuable lessons - the protagonists do all these inspiring things and have traits that can inspire, idk, better morals or something in the viewers. the same goes for idols, because even though we all know they aren't as nice and clean as we like to think they are, they still try to keep up a good image that their fans can follow. am i making any sense? am i being really naïve? it is kind of a naïve idea, huh 8__8.
for myself, i know i can say that anime and video games have definitely had a huge impact on my morals. that's probably the reason why i'm always so corny, too "orz. it sounds silly, but these characters from their imaginary worlds can rub off on me pretty easily. the first thing that comes to mind is kingdom hearts. it was one of the first video games/fandoms i got really into, and i remember crying once i finished the game (though that isn't anything big 'cause i always cry after the end of video games i get really attached to HAHA. especially if their stories are good). and i remember sometime last year, i went back and played the ps2 remake of chain of memories and could not stop laughing at how cheesy sora was being with all his "FRIENDSHIP!! \O/" and "PROMISES!! \O/" and just omg lol. but i guess these corny ideas had a really huge part of the kind of person i am today (that is, super sappy and airheaded and just daydreaming FOREVER!!)
whoa where was i going with that? this is why i don't make thoughtful posts, i go off on huge tangents 8|...
ANYWAYS.
the world isn't as cruel as you take it to be.
right. maybe i should give some backstory on this quote? does it even matter? i really hope, if anyone's read this far, that they aren't bored to death by now e____e.
i'm not too sure what this scene has to do with the rest of the story - maybe it's only purpose is to show what a manipulative ass izaya is - but it's still one of my favourite scenes.
basically, there were some group suicides going on and this girl, rio, was kind of fed up with her life and wanted to off herself as well. she meets izaya online and he promises to meet up with her so that they can die together... but when they finally meet, izaya's all "JK LOL" and basically mindfucks her, dangles her off the edge of a building, and makes her realize that she's terrified of dying. he snarks at her a bit and is all "see, i knew you didn't really want to die", so she goes all "BITCHH i'll show you" and ends up jumping to prove him wrong. before she hits the ground, she's saved, and is answered with the above quote when she asks why.
there have been a couple of suicides in my area this school year. a sophomore hung herself a couple months into the semester, and a middle schooler a week after. a couple years before i moved here, a guy hung himself off of the goal post on our school's football field, and not too long ago, the body of one of the school's english teachers was found after she had gone missing for a bit. i didn't know any of them personally, but from what i've heard, most of the suicides were caused by some sort of falling out with lovers or family members. something like that.
i've never been through anything like that, so i don't know if i have the right to say this, but..
guys!! if something like this happens to you, of course you're going to feel devastated, but give it time. i'm sure there are people out there who care deeply for you and will be there to help you through it (feel free to even drop me a message if you just need someone to talk to!!).
because the world isn't so cruel. it still has so much more to offer you★
PHEW okay. now that i've gone and said what i wanted to say.. it's time for me to spam my new love for durarara!!, the giver of the lovely quote that inspired this entry.
truthfully, honestly, guiltily i can say that one of the only reasons i'm watching this show is for the two most destructive characters of the series: shizuo heiwajima and izaya orihara. they have epic hatred for each other, which of course transfers to epic shipping potential in the fangirl mind.
bb shizuo is tall, intimidating, and angry. soooo angry, especially when izaya is nearby. his lack of anger management skills helped him develop his crazy superhuman strength, which he uses to beat shit up and throw vending machines at izaya \o/. and while he's probably responsible for half the property damage the city suffers from, he really doesn't like violence. he doesn't mean to destroy everything. he is a huge teddy bear and he is absolutely adorable with his pretty younger brother kasuka. he just... loses it sometimes. often. very easily.
but one of the best things about him is probably...
B A R T E N D E R O U T F I T \O/!! hngngnhgn my secret love. except not really secret. i think bartender outfits are the cutest things ever okay.
i think this about sums up his awesome:
AS YOU CAN SEE he is blonde and badass and IN A BARTENDER OUTFIT. obviously, he should be my favourite character. except that position was unfortunately stolen away by izaya and his manipulative bastard ways. * m*)g
izaya is kind of crazy. and an asshole. and everything that goes wrong in the series ever is probably his fault. it's no wonder shizuo (along with a bunch of the viewers) hate him lolol shrug!!
he claims to love all of humanity, because they're interesting or something. so i guess he puts them through awful situations just to observe them and see how they react. idk. who knows what goes on in that cray-cray head of his 8|||
i can't find a satisfactory video for him so i guess i'll just have to settle for a cracky video that probably perfectly mirrors his cracky personality:
he's a total troll. he just trolls everybody. stomps on cellphones and on boyfriends and pretends to be a girl on the internet, while ruining people's lives and laughing the whole way through. why do i like him again? idk idk ヽ(゜∇゜)ノ
i didn't think i would be sticking around this fandom for too long unless they came out with a second season soon or something (omg that would kill me *__*) but then i went and found... the kink meme.
and jesus christ
it is
amazing.
i think it's up to six parts already and each part is FULL of creative prompts and fills. and it's not just mindless smut either 'cause there are several really good longfics in there. it's also still pretty healthy and has an archive that updates almost daily. i'm like. ;___;~~~
so it looks like this fandom is going to last me a while as well. OTL!!
so!! that's enough durarararararararararararararara business for now BUT I'M NOT DONE YET (lol how long is this omg)
expiredcyanide lovarrrrrrr made me a derpy siwon icon!!
it's now my default. you guys will start seeing it everywhere HOHOHOHOHO!!
but that's not it!! she went and made me a SEXY DON'T DON!SIWON GIF TOO HNNGNHHGNHGNHNNNNGNGGGG
it's beautiful ;______________________________;♥♥♥ i love siwon in don't don hair sdlfkjdslkgjdslfh. and now i must draw her edgeworth fanart. OH MAN i need to get working on all that art i owe..
i think that's it. is that it?? if anyone actually went and read through this entire thing, i am in awe e__e
OH wait i was going to post an update on that pic i'm working on so that i feel like i'm actually doing something productive with this post HUR HUR
★click for fullview
messing around with painter 11 and having much fun so far! *0* but i haven't tried lineless in a while. it's hard OTL
there's a light novel and a manga and an anime for the series, but i've only just finished the anime and read some of the manga. i guess it's a bit manry with all the action and drama and curvy girls, but after watching gurren lagann and sengoku basara, nothing seems too manry anymore, LOL.
ANYWAYS, there was this one quote from episode 2(ish?) that really kind of struck me, and i thought i would like to share it with you guys. even though most of you are from kpop fandom and probably aren't too interested in this stuff, but still~
“the world isn't as cruel as you take it to be.”
it's really simple and not really anything new, but sometimes when i'm in the shower or laying awake at night, i think a lot. with all my capslock and fangirly flailing and screaming i might kind of seem like i don't think at all... BUT SOMETIMES I DO, srsly ಥ益ಥ. i'm just always too lazy to put any of these thoughts out anywhere because putting these things into words is hard for me and i have a short attention span (i've been meaning to make this post for like three weeks now lolol)
right, yeah, so i was thinking. i'm seventeen years old. i'm still really into anime, manga, video games, pretty kpop idols... stuff that a lot of people would probably consider childish, especially for someone who's going to be a legal adult in like eight months (AAH (;゜ロ゜)..). i don't mean to offend anyone around my age/older by saying this, but i know i've met plenty of people (and my parents hur hur) who think it's about time i start growing up. i guess i kind of should, though; i'm so irresponsible it's not even funny OTL
but there's something about these "childish" things that i feel people should appreciate more. you hear all those theories about how maybe the little kids/babies are the ones who have everything right in their untainted minds, or something, right. i feel like some animes, mangas, etc teach really valuable lessons - the protagonists do all these inspiring things and have traits that can inspire, idk, better morals or something in the viewers. the same goes for idols, because even though we all know they aren't as nice and clean as we like to think they are, they still try to keep up a good image that their fans can follow. am i making any sense? am i being really naïve? it is kind of a naïve idea, huh 8__8.
for myself, i know i can say that anime and video games have definitely had a huge impact on my morals. that's probably the reason why i'm always so corny, too "orz. it sounds silly, but these characters from their imaginary worlds can rub off on me pretty easily. the first thing that comes to mind is kingdom hearts. it was one of the first video games/fandoms i got really into, and i remember crying once i finished the game (though that isn't anything big 'cause i always cry after the end of video games i get really attached to HAHA. especially if their stories are good). and i remember sometime last year, i went back and played the ps2 remake of chain of memories and could not stop laughing at how cheesy sora was being with all his "FRIENDSHIP!! \O/" and "PROMISES!! \O/" and just omg lol. but i guess these corny ideas had a really huge part of the kind of person i am today (that is, super sappy and airheaded and just daydreaming FOREVER!!)
whoa where was i going with that? this is why i don't make thoughtful posts, i go off on huge tangents 8|...
ANYWAYS.
the world isn't as cruel as you take it to be.
right. maybe i should give some backstory on this quote? does it even matter? i really hope, if anyone's read this far, that they aren't bored to death by now e____e.
i'm not too sure what this scene has to do with the rest of the story - maybe it's only purpose is to show what a manipulative ass izaya is - but it's still one of my favourite scenes.
basically, there were some group suicides going on and this girl, rio, was kind of fed up with her life and wanted to off herself as well. she meets izaya online and he promises to meet up with her so that they can die together... but when they finally meet, izaya's all "JK LOL" and basically mindfucks her, dangles her off the edge of a building, and makes her realize that she's terrified of dying. he snarks at her a bit and is all "see, i knew you didn't really want to die", so she goes all "BITCHH i'll show you" and ends up jumping to prove him wrong. before she hits the ground, she's saved, and is answered with the above quote when she asks why.
there have been a couple of suicides in my area this school year. a sophomore hung herself a couple months into the semester, and a middle schooler a week after. a couple years before i moved here, a guy hung himself off of the goal post on our school's football field, and not too long ago, the body of one of the school's english teachers was found after she had gone missing for a bit. i didn't know any of them personally, but from what i've heard, most of the suicides were caused by some sort of falling out with lovers or family members. something like that.
i've never been through anything like that, so i don't know if i have the right to say this, but..
guys!! if something like this happens to you, of course you're going to feel devastated, but give it time. i'm sure there are people out there who care deeply for you and will be there to help you through it (feel free to even drop me a message if you just need someone to talk to!!).
because the world isn't so cruel. it still has so much more to offer you★
PHEW okay. now that i've gone and said what i wanted to say.. it's time for me to spam my new love for durarara!!, the giver of the lovely quote that inspired this entry.
truthfully, honestly, guiltily i can say that one of the only reasons i'm watching this show is for the two most destructive characters of the series: shizuo heiwajima and izaya orihara. they have epic hatred for each other, which of course transfers to epic shipping potential in the fangirl mind.
bb shizuo is tall, intimidating, and angry. soooo angry, especially when izaya is nearby. his lack of anger management skills helped him develop his crazy superhuman strength, which he uses to beat shit up and throw vending machines at izaya \o/. and while he's probably responsible for half the property damage the city suffers from, he really doesn't like violence. he doesn't mean to destroy everything. he is a huge teddy bear and he is absolutely adorable with his pretty younger brother kasuka. he just... loses it sometimes. often. very easily.
but one of the best things about him is probably...
B A R T E N D E R O U T F I T \O/!! hngngnhgn my secret love. except not really secret. i think bartender outfits are the cutest things ever okay.
i think this about sums up his awesome:
AS YOU CAN SEE he is blonde and badass and IN A BARTENDER OUTFIT. obviously, he should be my favourite character. except that position was unfortunately stolen away by izaya and his manipulative bastard ways. * m*)g
Click to viewizaya is kind of crazy. and an asshole. and everything that goes wrong in the series ever is probably his fault. it's no wonder shizuo (along with a bunch of the viewers) hate him lolol shrug!!
he claims to love all of humanity, because they're interesting or something. so i guess he puts them through awful situations just to observe them and see how they react. idk. who knows what goes on in that cray-cray head of his 8|||
i can't find a satisfactory video for him so i guess i'll just have to settle for a cracky video that probably perfectly mirrors his cracky personality:
he's a total troll. he just trolls everybody. stomps on cellphones and on boyfriends and pretends to be a girl on the internet, while ruining people's lives and laughing the whole way through. why do i like him again? idk idk ヽ(゜∇゜)ノ
i didn't think i would be sticking around this fandom for too long unless they came out with a second season soon or something (omg that would kill me *__*) but then i went and found... the kink meme.
and jesus christ
it is
amazing.
i think it's up to six parts already and each part is FULL of creative prompts and fills. and it's not just mindless smut either 'cause there are several really good longfics in there. it's also still pretty healthy and has an archive that updates almost daily. i'm like. ;___;~~~
so it looks like this fandom is going to last me a while as well. OTL!!
so!! that's enough durarararararararararararararara business for now BUT I'M NOT DONE YET (lol how long is this omg)
expiredcyanide lovarrrrrrr made me a derpy siwon icon!!
it's now my default. you guys will start seeing it everywhere HOHOHOHOHO!!
but that's not it!! she went and made me a SEXY DON'T DON!SIWON GIF TOO HNNGNHHGNHGNHNNNNGNGGGG
it's beautiful ;______________________________;♥♥♥ i love siwon in don't don hair sdlfkjdslkgjdslfh. and now i must draw her edgeworth fanart. OH MAN i need to get working on all that art i owe..
i think that's it. is that it?? if anyone actually went and read through this entire thing, i am in awe e__e
OH wait i was going to post an update on that pic i'm working on so that i feel like i'm actually doing something productive with this post HUR HUR
★click for fullview
messing around with painter 11 and having much fun so far! *0* but i haven't tried lineless in a while. it's hard OTL