:::sigh::::
do you know what the most terrible feeling in the world is? its the exact thing im feeling....as much as i can tell myself i dont care about him anymore, and act like i hate him...the truth is, i havent lost any feelings at all...and what hurts the most is that he has lost most of his feelings for me....i wish there was something i could do to just make things the way they were....
i dont know whats wrong with me....i just miss him so much...i cant even explain....i really shouldnt miss him this much...but for some reason i do....
hes hanging out with his friends tonight....i called him right after practice and was gonna see if maybe we could hang out for a little bit....but yea that didnt work out....i feel like such an idiot chasing around this boy who doesnt even like me anymore...but i cant help it....i dont care how stupid i look...i still love him....
and thats what the worst feeling in the world is.....to love somebody who doesnt love you back...and no matter how much u wish things would change...chances are, they probably wont....
i guess theres not much else i can do except sit at home and hope that he thinks of me for just a second...and that would make me happy...<3
its definitely an appropriate time to watch the notebook and wish that my life was like a movie....
goodnight
i dont know whats wrong with me....i just miss him so much...i cant even explain....i really shouldnt miss him this much...but for some reason i do....
hes hanging out with his friends tonight....i called him right after practice and was gonna see if maybe we could hang out for a little bit....but yea that didnt work out....i feel like such an idiot chasing around this boy who doesnt even like me anymore...but i cant help it....i dont care how stupid i look...i still love him....
and thats what the worst feeling in the world is.....to love somebody who doesnt love you back...and no matter how much u wish things would change...chances are, they probably wont....
i guess theres not much else i can do except sit at home and hope that he thinks of me for just a second...and that would make me happy...<3
its definitely an appropriate time to watch the notebook and wish that my life was like a movie....
goodnight