policemen are cock bites!
I think I'm going to turn my life into halo. Because thats simpler.
I thought about writing an entry about why I'm down, but then I realized it'd be easier to just yell COCK BITE@!!!#!#
Sigh. I dont think I can frag ellis tho, so I'll have to try and figure myself out.
I see myself as having 3 sides. Intellectual, emotional, and phisical.
Phisically Im resonable. I'm still sore, and my hand hurts where I fell off Jessi's deck. I'm still a horny bastard, but I'm in control of myself. I'm tired, but not exhausted.
Intellectually I am kinda down. I havent written, but I'm working on hannibal vs caesar, as well as IB, which is keeping me in line.
Emotionally we run into trouble. My main sources of stress relief, are doing work, hugging people, and halo. Doing work is strange, sometimes it helps me calm down, sometimes it makes it worse. Hugging people is great, always makes me feel better. Halo is dangerous, because it is like gambling. If I pwn, all my stress is gone. Perfectly clean. If I dont, if it's unfair, or if people are bitches, then it compounds my stress. I'm cutting halo down, at the moment I only play half an hour when I have free time after homework, or on the weekend.
when I saw jessi yesterday, I almost had to ask her if she was dating sampson, because he wasn't, I dont know, hanging on her. I remember thinking that I would be. I realized a split second that I'm fucking retarded, because that's where I fucked up. I think he's smarter than me, because he had lots of fun, and so did she, without anyone being opressive.
I want a girlfriend. I want someone to talk to, hug, and kiss. I know I hug everyone, but I can't hug everyone for twenty minutes without it getting awkward. Thats what I want.
I am having trouble figuring out who I want to try and court or whatever. There are a lot of cute girls (hells yes!) a lot of smart girls (im in IB, foo) and a lot of emotionally mature girls (they are girls, duh) but I'm having trouble finding one with all three (enough that we are compatable) who I have a chance with. I dunno. I dont know exactly who I can talk to about any of this, so posting it on LJ might not be the best idea. Moreover, It'd be wierd if I later find that a person on LJ (yes, I'm going to post this on Xanga too, but xanga aint as cool, so ima say LJ) fits the bill.
I think that one of the problems is that I am too informal. I would be fine with just asking people simply, without any sort of change in conversation, but other people arent used to that. (i guess it's wierd).
No, come to think of it, I think I know a bigger problem. Normally, if you like someone, you start light flirting to tell if they like you too. what's that mean eh? that means hugging, telling them they are cute, being really nice and helping them, tickling ect.
well, I do that to everyone, cause I'm a dumbass. So basically, the next step up is make outs. I dont think that that'll work for seeing if they like me... well, ok, it'll work, but it ups the stakes.
I'm wack. I need a life or something. I think I'll say STFU to me being emo, and just fix this, like, soon.
another problem, which I've recently thought of, is this. There is no one person I can talk to about the ladytypes who most match me. Nobody knows everyone who I think is awesome.
Allright. Here's what it comes down to. Like I said earlier, I'm just gonna say STFU to the problem, and fix this anyway. So... If you're a ladytype watch out, cause I might just be thinking you're dateable.
XD, only college types, chase, sara, and maybe karly is gonna read this, so I dunno what I'm talking about. In any event, I must away to bed, but I shall wake ready to face the day.
I thought about writing an entry about why I'm down, but then I realized it'd be easier to just yell COCK BITE@!!!#!#
Sigh. I dont think I can frag ellis tho, so I'll have to try and figure myself out.
I see myself as having 3 sides. Intellectual, emotional, and phisical.
Phisically Im resonable. I'm still sore, and my hand hurts where I fell off Jessi's deck. I'm still a horny bastard, but I'm in control of myself. I'm tired, but not exhausted.
Intellectually I am kinda down. I havent written, but I'm working on hannibal vs caesar, as well as IB, which is keeping me in line.
Emotionally we run into trouble. My main sources of stress relief, are doing work, hugging people, and halo. Doing work is strange, sometimes it helps me calm down, sometimes it makes it worse. Hugging people is great, always makes me feel better. Halo is dangerous, because it is like gambling. If I pwn, all my stress is gone. Perfectly clean. If I dont, if it's unfair, or if people are bitches, then it compounds my stress. I'm cutting halo down, at the moment I only play half an hour when I have free time after homework, or on the weekend.
when I saw jessi yesterday, I almost had to ask her if she was dating sampson, because he wasn't, I dont know, hanging on her. I remember thinking that I would be. I realized a split second that I'm fucking retarded, because that's where I fucked up. I think he's smarter than me, because he had lots of fun, and so did she, without anyone being opressive.
I want a girlfriend. I want someone to talk to, hug, and kiss. I know I hug everyone, but I can't hug everyone for twenty minutes without it getting awkward. Thats what I want.
I am having trouble figuring out who I want to try and court or whatever. There are a lot of cute girls (hells yes!) a lot of smart girls (im in IB, foo) and a lot of emotionally mature girls (they are girls, duh) but I'm having trouble finding one with all three (enough that we are compatable) who I have a chance with. I dunno. I dont know exactly who I can talk to about any of this, so posting it on LJ might not be the best idea. Moreover, It'd be wierd if I later find that a person on LJ (yes, I'm going to post this on Xanga too, but xanga aint as cool, so ima say LJ) fits the bill.
I think that one of the problems is that I am too informal. I would be fine with just asking people simply, without any sort of change in conversation, but other people arent used to that. (i guess it's wierd).
No, come to think of it, I think I know a bigger problem. Normally, if you like someone, you start light flirting to tell if they like you too. what's that mean eh? that means hugging, telling them they are cute, being really nice and helping them, tickling ect.
well, I do that to everyone, cause I'm a dumbass. So basically, the next step up is make outs. I dont think that that'll work for seeing if they like me... well, ok, it'll work, but it ups the stakes.
I'm wack. I need a life or something. I think I'll say STFU to me being emo, and just fix this, like, soon.
another problem, which I've recently thought of, is this. There is no one person I can talk to about the ladytypes who most match me. Nobody knows everyone who I think is awesome.
Allright. Here's what it comes down to. Like I said earlier, I'm just gonna say STFU to the problem, and fix this anyway. So... If you're a ladytype watch out, cause I might just be thinking you're dateable.
XD, only college types, chase, sara, and maybe karly is gonna read this, so I dunno what I'm talking about. In any event, I must away to bed, but I shall wake ready to face the day.