My love. I am sorry for what you are feeling. And I really wish I could help make things better for you. Your family, That is something that you have to make mends with yourself. Your mother and Jon dont like me and I can not help one bit in that situation. The friends and shit, I have tried to help but I guess I really dont know the people you like. Once my car gets up and running I will take you where ever it is that you want to go and meet ppl so your not stuck with me all the time. I am sorry that you miss Stevie boy. And maybe some day something will change... Hopefully him coming out this way or if need be... We can move that way. You will end up being with him again I know that... When is just the other question. I wish there was more that I could do for you to help you fill that emptiness in your heart... I really wish I could. As for being with my family, I hope it helps. And in a couple years once they know that we are together, things with us and the family will be better I swear. I hope it helps you somewhat this year. I know you probably would of liked to be back home right about now to spend the time with Steve and your parents... and hopefully I can make that wish come true for you next year.
But the best thing I can tell you is, make mends with Mom and them and send my love if you do, and for me to take you out more often to hang out with your friends. I feel as if I am keeping you from them all the time.. I want you to have friends un-like me. I want your life to be pleasent on top of being with me. I want you to enjoy your life out here.... NOT REGREAT IT!
I love you with all my heart babe.
I hope that things will be better for you.
I will Try my best to fill that empty space that has been created... trust me...
Missing Xmas wasnt so bad for me.. I left when i was 7 and my whole family was out here.. so it wasnt bad.
I know when your use to your ways shit is hard to change. And I am sorry....
But I know that things for you will turn for the better for you.
I love you and I hope you have fun hanging out with me and my fucked up family this year. Get use to it.. there is many MANY more years to come my love! :D
But the best thing I can tell you is, make mends with Mom and them and send my love if you do, and for me to take you out more often to hang out with your friends. I feel as if I am keeping you from them all the time.. I want you to have friends un-like me. I want your life to be pleasent on top of being with me. I want you to enjoy your life out here.... NOT REGREAT IT!
I love you with all my heart babe.
I hope that things will be better for you.
I will Try my best to fill that empty space that has been created... trust me...
Much love!
~Nikki -Muah!-
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The time i will have with you will be great and loving.. i know that
But when you get used to things for awhile.. you tend to miss it..
Remember your first christmas in Phoenix... Im sure you had withdrawls from Ohio and what was there before you moved
Its gonna be hard.. but im going to try...
And its not your fault you hang out with older ignorant people lol... You try to hang with what you know...
Personally... People like Chris, Steve, Tony, Edgar, Aaron and Tony... are who i like to hang out with...
Stoners lol
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I know when your use to your ways shit is hard to change. And I am sorry....
But I know that things for you will turn for the better for you.
I love you and I hope you have fun hanging out with me and my fucked up family this year. Get use to it.. there is many MANY more years to come my love! :D
Love you always and for eternity!
~Nikki -Muah!-
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