Reflecting....
Lots have changed for me over the last year..
Ive made some new friends... Tony, Dan, Edgar, Oscar, Britney, Deanna, Miguel, Amy, Dennis....
I have a new Girlfriend.. Nikki
I have a new Location.. Phoenix Arizona
And i dont have any contact with any existing family whatsoever
If you read a post earlier with a fight with my family... I dont speak to them anymore...
And a hole is beginning to build within my heart
I love my family, No matter the shit we go through.. They do things that piss me off and cause me pain over the years.. As i have to them im sure... Its a world of conflicting minds... Im a Rebel problem Child with a Great mind for Psychology and Wisdom... They are a bunch of rednecks with very little brain power who only think of themselves..
But they did help me when i needed it...They gave me a second chance when i got out of jail and gave me a home and food and a roof...
Its weird that im here in Phoenix, No snow, Not really cold, No friends, No family..
My dad.. Whom i havent seen in 13 years, lives no more then 20 minutes away..
Its a little much to take on
For the last 8.. 9.. years.. I was in Kentucky (Ok.. Take that back.. I was in Michigan for a year and Ohio for one X-Mas) And ive gotten used to things
First it was Jarod and Steve
Then it was Steve
Then it was Jarod and Holli
Then it was Shelly
Then it was Steve
And its been ME and STEVE for 4 years now... And its weird not having him around
I miss Steve, and his family, I miss Aaron and Tony...
Maybe im just having withdrawls from my old life
Ive been out here for 4 Months total...
I have friends, but i dont hang out with most of them at all... Dan is pretty much the only one i really like hanging out
Amy and Dennis are cool and all.. but they arent who i really hang out with..They are too....i dont know... "Goody" i guess and tend to be rather loud and clingy
Maybe im being too closed minded towards them... but i mean... When you grow up with certain people around you all the time... You get rather defensive towards making new friends
Steve has been my best friend since i moved to that part of Owensboro Kentucky.. And hes like a brother to me... We got into alot of shit together and lived through alot of shit together... And you cant replace him... And no one will
I dont know...
Im going to love spending Christmas with Nikki and her Family... But will it be enough to somehow fill that emptiness thats building inside of me?
Ive made some new friends... Tony, Dan, Edgar, Oscar, Britney, Deanna, Miguel, Amy, Dennis....
I have a new Girlfriend.. Nikki
I have a new Location.. Phoenix Arizona
And i dont have any contact with any existing family whatsoever
If you read a post earlier with a fight with my family... I dont speak to them anymore...
And a hole is beginning to build within my heart
I love my family, No matter the shit we go through.. They do things that piss me off and cause me pain over the years.. As i have to them im sure... Its a world of conflicting minds... Im a Rebel problem Child with a Great mind for Psychology and Wisdom... They are a bunch of rednecks with very little brain power who only think of themselves..
But they did help me when i needed it...They gave me a second chance when i got out of jail and gave me a home and food and a roof...
Its weird that im here in Phoenix, No snow, Not really cold, No friends, No family..
My dad.. Whom i havent seen in 13 years, lives no more then 20 minutes away..
Its a little much to take on
For the last 8.. 9.. years.. I was in Kentucky (Ok.. Take that back.. I was in Michigan for a year and Ohio for one X-Mas) And ive gotten used to things
First it was Jarod and Steve
Then it was Steve
Then it was Jarod and Holli
Then it was Shelly
Then it was Steve
And its been ME and STEVE for 4 years now... And its weird not having him around
I miss Steve, and his family, I miss Aaron and Tony...
Maybe im just having withdrawls from my old life
Ive been out here for 4 Months total...
I have friends, but i dont hang out with most of them at all... Dan is pretty much the only one i really like hanging out
Amy and Dennis are cool and all.. but they arent who i really hang out with..They are too....i dont know... "Goody" i guess and tend to be rather loud and clingy
Maybe im being too closed minded towards them... but i mean... When you grow up with certain people around you all the time... You get rather defensive towards making new friends
Steve has been my best friend since i moved to that part of Owensboro Kentucky.. And hes like a brother to me... We got into alot of shit together and lived through alot of shit together... And you cant replace him... And no one will
I dont know...
Im going to love spending Christmas with Nikki and her Family... But will it be enough to somehow fill that emptiness thats building inside of me?