Give me one cuz one is best...in confusion confidence...

[dimensionzac]

im feeling stressed lately. things aren't going bad, im jsut having a very sudden attack of anxiety towards like everything. i don't get it like today. it's wednesday and for some reason im trying to run around like a madman about plans for the weekend. i don't undesrstand why i am, but i am. if im going skating a feel really sketched out of we don't know what time were going to what spot...i dont wanna go to hockey and when im there i can't stand not doing something. i have to be moving. in school it's like i cna't stay in one class long enough...and the next second i can't get out of it quick enough. i dont know. i know that i love my amazing girlfriend very much, and she's making me feel sane and keeping me somewhat 'normal' or whatever that means you know? i'm very thankful for where i am in my life and what i have. all of my friends and amber and the things that i've done. im not necessarily an extremely 'proud' or 'cocky' person, but for most of the things i've done i do take pride in. i taught myself guitar and where i am with it now, although im not really too great...for never taking a lesson i think im doing ok. and i taught myself photography and alhtough that doesn't really take schooling...i taught myself exposure rates and shutter speeds and lighting techniques, my own distinct style in angles and image capturing...nothing is ripped off it's all my own ideas.

today i got my two new books in the mail. "Super Lateral Thinking Problems" and "Alive" a photography book by Mario Testino. famous photographer. very inspiring actually it's given me alot of good ideas and techniques i'd like to try. ok, im gonna talk to my baby, play my guitar, fool around with my guitar, and listen to coldplay. sounds good.

to amber, my love
to the rest, my anemities