Another long hiatus ends
I'm back now. Trying to catch up on the changes with everyone after sixteen months away from LJ. With so much going on (and often going wrong) in my personal life for the last year, I needed to step away from things online for a while.
Slowly, very slowly, life is getting put back together. I've managed to recover, mostly, from being brought to financial ruin by a crooked business partner and a nasty economy. New home in a new state (Oregon), new job (for a mobile marketing company), new side business (web marketing and computer security tutoring and consulting) that may or may not be the seed that starts my next company.
Recovering from a business and financial disaster is one thing. Recovering from the psychological blow and the stench of failure? Now that part's a little harder. And that's what the past year's been about. Stepping back, figuring out what went wrong, re-evaluating, rethinking priorities. Yeah, all that stuff that they talk about in New Age touchy-feely personal development that often sounds like so much bull. Like it's unimportant. Except that it's not.
And so, I muddle along. Putting the pieces back together. Working hard to stop feeling like a failure and focus instead on doing something about it. Getting back to the work of building the kind of life I want to build.
It was less than two years ago that there seemed to be so much hope and optimism in the air. A bright new day, new leadership in Washington, "yes we can", and all that jazz. Of course, none of it was ever supposed to be easy. A better life--whether it's your personal life or the state of the world--is not something that we are given, but something that must be fought for every moment. We all know this. And yet, we all also, somehow, fool ourselves into thinking that maybe things will be easy after all, that maybe we're due for a break. But life doesn't work that way. If only it did.
It's not rational, it doesn't make much sense, and yet, a sense of feeling disillusioned is there nevertheless. It's in my daily life. It's in my feelings about the direction of our society. I'm incredibly hopeful sometimes and incredibly worried sometimes. And often, it gets hard to tell which is more real.
I'll get it all figured out--eventually.
Hope everyone else out there is doing well.
Slowly, very slowly, life is getting put back together. I've managed to recover, mostly, from being brought to financial ruin by a crooked business partner and a nasty economy. New home in a new state (Oregon), new job (for a mobile marketing company), new side business (web marketing and computer security tutoring and consulting) that may or may not be the seed that starts my next company.
Recovering from a business and financial disaster is one thing. Recovering from the psychological blow and the stench of failure? Now that part's a little harder. And that's what the past year's been about. Stepping back, figuring out what went wrong, re-evaluating, rethinking priorities. Yeah, all that stuff that they talk about in New Age touchy-feely personal development that often sounds like so much bull. Like it's unimportant. Except that it's not.
And so, I muddle along. Putting the pieces back together. Working hard to stop feeling like a failure and focus instead on doing something about it. Getting back to the work of building the kind of life I want to build.
It was less than two years ago that there seemed to be so much hope and optimism in the air. A bright new day, new leadership in Washington, "yes we can", and all that jazz. Of course, none of it was ever supposed to be easy. A better life--whether it's your personal life or the state of the world--is not something that we are given, but something that must be fought for every moment. We all know this. And yet, we all also, somehow, fool ourselves into thinking that maybe things will be easy after all, that maybe we're due for a break. But life doesn't work that way. If only it did.
It's not rational, it doesn't make much sense, and yet, a sense of feeling disillusioned is there nevertheless. It's in my daily life. It's in my feelings about the direction of our society. I'm incredibly hopeful sometimes and incredibly worried sometimes. And often, it gets hard to tell which is more real.
I'll get it all figured out--eventually.
Hope everyone else out there is doing well.