Week Nine Passes...

[diluvian]

 Last Thursday was the ninth week since Jen died.  I've been fairly busy so the last week was not as bad as most of them have been, but I'm not sure if it was because I've gotten better/stronger or just because I was busy.  Some of it was basic non-fun stuff that had to be dealt with and some of it was meeting new people like

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See you soon?

[nighean_isis]

Hi Robert

Re: See you soon?

[diluvian]

Thank you for the supportive thoughts. Other have said similar things, but right now I think I need to hear it every once in a while just to remind me.

Yes, please feel free to call me tomorrow; it would be nice to talk to you. I think I gave you my home number (as well as my cell). I have one or two errands to run tomorrow, but I will be home for the rest of the day. If I don't pick up, just please leave me a message and I will call you back.

It was nice to see you again at BASCon. Talk to you later today.

-Robert

[plantgirl]

So many things will have memories, for a long time.

I'm missing her today, too. No, it will never be the loss you are learning to live with. Just, I miss her presence, her voice. On the bad days, I wonder why she hasn't posted in so long, and then I remember...

ouch.

[eretria]

How do you pay people back for saving you life?

By staying alive, Robert. It is the greatest thank-you you can give them.

[ravenslost]

I will always be sorry to not have known Jen. I get the feeling I would have really enjoyed her as well. I am grieved for the conversations we will never get to have, the laughter we'd have shared.

But I get to know *of* her now, through you. Through Plantgirl, through all of her friends who loved her so.

Despite your pain, and your sorrow, and in some moments because of it, I learn of her. I hope to learn of her for years to come, Robert. I hope you will share memories of her with me. She will always be a part of you. And for that alone, I like her an awful lot.

[ravenslost]

How do you pay people back for saving you life?

Though different circumstances, I owe my life to someone, as well. And I repay her by living my life to the fullest I can manage. By being aware of the gift that her friendship has been to me for almost twenty years now. By calling her when I'm sad, or excited. By trying my damnest to remember her birthday (I'm really bad with dates.) By being in her life, and keeping her in mine.

I don't think of it as a matter of paying her back really... it's more like appreciating the gifts she's given me.