Feeling like Cinderfella

Apr 10, 2021 23:58

Not only do I not get to go to the Ball, my entire life is flushing itself down the toilet.

For the past month, I've been looking forward to getting out of the house this evening. A friend's 30th birthday party was this evening (let's not even get into the issue of the fact that I turned 50 - a MAJOR Milestone Birthday - this year, and never got so much as even a dinner out with friends and family... much less the party I deserved), and as of a month ago I WAS INVITED.

I received the Event invite via Facebook, and promptly responded "Going."

In between that moment, and just the past week or so, I was apparently uninvited. I checked and searched Facebook, and the event was gone from my Events list. I can only guess that either Karen or Brandy contacted Nikki and asked her to remove me from the guest list. So, apparently, this is how my social life crumbles in the wake of Karen's abandonment of our marriage.

Not only do I have to watch her flirt and sext with other men, but I have to watch her rip my social connections away form me as well.
I guess it is only a matter of time before everyone starts "unfriending" me on social media as well, effectivley cutting me off form every link I have to what remains of my world around me.

This is the Robyn Separation all over again. (She's surpassed the level of cruelty that even Robyn inflicted)
Emotional withdrawl, sexual affairs and infidelity with other men flaunted in my face, separation and divorce.
All the while, the very fiber of the person that I am drowns and dies inside.

This time, I pray that the body follows suit.
I've never had the opportunity to even hope to celebrate turning 50. I pray that I do not make it to 51.

I have two wishes for my fairy godmother, and one is contingent upon the other.
Either find some miraculous way for me to win back the heart of the woman I love, or ensure that I slip away form this living Hell, and soon.

lonely, loneliness, i want to die, love, karen, marriage

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