the run in
So i had a good past few days... I went to go see The Starting Line with Sarah Epler last night which got me thinking about a lot of things. Seeing her was great. It was like she never made out with the guy I had a crush on in my house in front of my face. I know I should be more optomistic about this. I would usually put the 'but' here, but i really should be more optomistic.. and im trying. Seeing her really opened my eyes to what a frigid bitch I am with regards to second chances.
I never give people second chances. My general theory is that if you let me down enough the first time, i am going to safeguard myself against having the same thing happen again. I am starting to realize that the state of mind really isn't going to work out so well for me. I mean its done great in the past, but i am writing off a lot of people that I genuinely care about. What sarah did was shitty... but we were all drunk and i know she really felt badly about it. I am glad we reconciled and I look forward to going to visit her @ Fordham.
I also recently ran into my best friend from when I was little, Ashley. She and I made plans to hang out in the future too. We both sort of went our separate ways... but hopefully we will be able to hang out with some sort of understanding. She really was a great friend.
Certain people don't deserve the second chances... but to those who do, I really need to kick back and be more understanding. I don't want to call it a resolution cuz those seem to fail... but more along the lines of a lifestyle change.
This new years i had plans to have people come over and watch the fireworks. After a few random flukes, I really just want to sit at home in my pajamas drinking a few bottles of asti and ring in the new year with my bike, my fajita maker and a big vat of champaigne. Is that bad?
till next year-
I never give people second chances. My general theory is that if you let me down enough the first time, i am going to safeguard myself against having the same thing happen again. I am starting to realize that the state of mind really isn't going to work out so well for me. I mean its done great in the past, but i am writing off a lot of people that I genuinely care about. What sarah did was shitty... but we were all drunk and i know she really felt badly about it. I am glad we reconciled and I look forward to going to visit her @ Fordham.
I also recently ran into my best friend from when I was little, Ashley. She and I made plans to hang out in the future too. We both sort of went our separate ways... but hopefully we will be able to hang out with some sort of understanding. She really was a great friend.
Certain people don't deserve the second chances... but to those who do, I really need to kick back and be more understanding. I don't want to call it a resolution cuz those seem to fail... but more along the lines of a lifestyle change.
This new years i had plans to have people come over and watch the fireworks. After a few random flukes, I really just want to sit at home in my pajamas drinking a few bottles of asti and ring in the new year with my bike, my fajita maker and a big vat of champaigne. Is that bad?
till next year-