the lamb and the knife - an Anna Milton fanmix
We now return you to your regularly scheduled fanmix postings.This time it's for Anna Milton of Supernatural, my girl, my angel, my phoenix.
the lamb and the knife
This is a 5 track fanmix. All files are .mp3 format. Front cover is made by me.
Track Listing
01. Rabbit Heart [Raise it Up] - Florence + The Machine
Here I am, a rabbit-hearted girl
Frozen in the headlights
It seems I've made the final sacrifice
We raise it up, this offering
We raise it up
This is a gift, it comes with a price
Who is the lamb and who is the knife?
Midas is king and he holds me so tight
And turns me to gold in the sunlight
I look around, but I can't find you (raise it up)
If only I could see your face (raise it up)
Instead of rushing towards the skyline (raise it up)
I wish that I could just be brave
I must become a lion-hearted girl
Ready for a fight
Before I make the final sacrifice
...
And in the spring I shed my skin
And it blows away with the changing wind
The waters turn from blue to red
As towards the sky I offer it
[Oh, this whole song just screams the girls of Supernatural, but especially Anna. I want to go through line by line, but I'll be quick here. It covers Anna's fall and the return of her grace, from her realization of her angelic nature (here i am, a rabbit-hearted girl/frozen in the headlights) to what being an angel means in her mind, power with a price. She seems so unassuming, but she is really an angel, beneath her human skin. "Midas" is obviously God, or at least what she perceives to be His grip on her life; she is always connected to Heaven, and she must reclaim her place there in the end. The second verse, therefore, is her before her fall, or a reflection on those feelings. Not seeing God, her own crisis of faith, and then her wishing to be able to choose what to do without this conflict. She in the end accepts what must be done and must say farewell to her humanity-- she must become a lion-hearted girl-- an angel again.]
02. Oh Glory - PANIC! At the Disco
I can only hope it's true enough
That every little thing I do for love
Redeems me from the moments I deem worthy
Of the worst things that I've done
And saves me from myself
The times of envy
When I'm missing everyone
If I wake in the morning
I only need two more miracles to be a saint
Everything I promised everyone I'd be
Well I just ain't (ain't, ain't, ain't)
Lately it seems like
Everybody's sick, everybody's died (everybody's died)
Build myself a wall up on happy highs
Know in my heart that my head is lying, lying
Oh glory
I think I see you 'round the bend
And I think I'd try any poison to get there in the end
[A mix of Anna throughout, from her doubts in Heaven to her return while brainwashed. In the end, no matter what she did, it was all to stop the apocalypse, even if she wasn't herself when she returned, which I truly believe. Everything was to fix things. All she did was what she believed was right, from falling to trying to kill John and Mary. The glory is the future, is her hopes and dreams, her want to be a human, her desire for the war to end, everything. Anna is not perfect and she knows this. She's not the angel people expect her to be, nor I suspect was she the child her parents expected, given the stories of her early life. Nothing is right. But she continues on.]
03. Solider - Ingrid Michaelson
I don't believe in anything but myself
I don't believe in anything but myself
But then you opened up a door, you opened up a door
Now I start to believe in something else
But how do I know if I'll make it through?
How do I know? Where's the proof in you?
And so it goes, this soldier knows
The battle with the heart isn't easily won
And so it goes, this soldier knows
The battle with the heart isn't easily won
But it can be won, but it can be won
I sit in the back of a bus watching the world grow old
Watching the world go by all by myself
I took a faithful leap and packed up all my things
And all my love and gave it to somebody else
[Anna's fall. She loves God, she loves her siblings, but she can't stay in Heaven. She can't stay when she longs for the life of a human and Earth and freewill and everything that she can start to finally experience if she just falls. There's a parallel, I think, with the questioning in season 4, with trying to get through to Castiel. I see this as a reflection song, during the chorus, and a prelude to her regaining her grace. The mention of a solider worked best, I feel, because angels are soldiers-- Anna was a soldier as an angel, and she cannot escape that. This is her battle of heart versus head, and which one will be the victory.]
04. Starlight - Muse
Far away
This ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
Starlight
I will be chasing the starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore
Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive
...
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
[A tricky song that seems to be split between Heaven in general and...well, life. Anna's, I believe, a physical person. Anna loves physical contact. Touch. Everything she couldn't have in Heaven, she makes up for by living her life to the fullest on Earth. She couldn't have what she wanted when she was an angel, that life didn't work out for her. And now she must leave the life on Earth. She must let it disappear and drift away, and she must let her life on Earth die. It is a farewell to Anna Milton and a return to being Anna the angel, but at the same time it parallels what I believe to be her fall. It was difficult. It was painful. It is filled with regrets. There is joy and there is sorrow. And in the end, she must leave. She has hopes, and they are dashed. She must leave, but she continues to chase a happy life. The starlight. Even with doubts.]
05. Lost Realist - Trapt
My independence is calling my name.
A doubtful voice divides my faith.
My independence only hesitates.
An unsure choice, I can't embrace.
You're gonna have to carve me,
Carve me from stone,
Right to the bone,
Or I'll end up alone.
Playing the role
Of someone in control.
Why do I rush to slow down?
Why do I rush to slow down everything?
Why do I rush to slow down?
Why do I rush to slow down everything?
Will the dice ever roll?
When will I ever know?
Will the plot ever twist,
Or will I still resist?
I've been playing the part of a lost realist.
My independence is turning the page,
Tomorrow comes, we start to fade.
My independence only complicates,
It's not enough to meet halfway.
You'll have to carve me,
Carve me from stone,
Right to the bone,
Or I'll end up alone.
Playing the role,
Of someone in control.
Why do I rush to slow down?
Why do I rush to slow down everything?
Why do I rush to slow down?
Why do I rush to slow down everything?
Will the dice ever roll?
When will I ever know?
Will the plot ever twist,
Or will I still resist?
I've been playing the part of a lost realist.
I only keep what I give away...
I only keep what I give away...
[I'll stop there, but that's nearly the whole song-- because even more than "Rabbit Heart [Raise it up]" which I believe to be the most Anna-centric song I'd found. This is the best song, I think, to capture not just her story, but her attitude, and thus why it's last. She is independent. She is different. Wild, but thoughtful. Not rash, she can't afford to be. She must think. She wants to live this life of a human, this slower life. She doesn't want all the power of an angel. Anna ends up with nothing, but damn if she doesn't try her hardest to help the boys before she gets tortured, damn if she doesn't try to save not just them but the world she loves. So many unanswered questions, and she really is unsure about so much, but she will be calm and collected. Like I said, she can't afford not to be.]
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Download .zip file here.
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-> Please tell me if you can't download the file, I'll upload it somewhere else.
-> If the link expires, just comment and I'll re-upload
-> Thanks so much again to Ryan and Kyrie, the former for my random musings and assuring me about the cover, and the latter for recommending Ingrid Michaelson. Wouldn't be able to live without you, girl!
-> Comments are love! If you download, try and give a shout, share your thoughts, alright? :)
the lamb and the knife
This is a 5 track fanmix. All files are .mp3 format. Front cover is made by me.
Track Listing
01. Rabbit Heart [Raise it Up] - Florence + The Machine
Here I am, a rabbit-hearted girl
Frozen in the headlights
It seems I've made the final sacrifice
We raise it up, this offering
We raise it up
This is a gift, it comes with a price
Who is the lamb and who is the knife?
Midas is king and he holds me so tight
And turns me to gold in the sunlight
I look around, but I can't find you (raise it up)
If only I could see your face (raise it up)
Instead of rushing towards the skyline (raise it up)
I wish that I could just be brave
I must become a lion-hearted girl
Ready for a fight
Before I make the final sacrifice
...
And in the spring I shed my skin
And it blows away with the changing wind
The waters turn from blue to red
As towards the sky I offer it
[Oh, this whole song just screams the girls of Supernatural, but especially Anna. I want to go through line by line, but I'll be quick here. It covers Anna's fall and the return of her grace, from her realization of her angelic nature (here i am, a rabbit-hearted girl/frozen in the headlights) to what being an angel means in her mind, power with a price. She seems so unassuming, but she is really an angel, beneath her human skin. "Midas" is obviously God, or at least what she perceives to be His grip on her life; she is always connected to Heaven, and she must reclaim her place there in the end. The second verse, therefore, is her before her fall, or a reflection on those feelings. Not seeing God, her own crisis of faith, and then her wishing to be able to choose what to do without this conflict. She in the end accepts what must be done and must say farewell to her humanity-- she must become a lion-hearted girl-- an angel again.]
02. Oh Glory - PANIC! At the Disco
I can only hope it's true enough
That every little thing I do for love
Redeems me from the moments I deem worthy
Of the worst things that I've done
And saves me from myself
The times of envy
When I'm missing everyone
If I wake in the morning
I only need two more miracles to be a saint
Everything I promised everyone I'd be
Well I just ain't (ain't, ain't, ain't)
Lately it seems like
Everybody's sick, everybody's died (everybody's died)
Build myself a wall up on happy highs
Know in my heart that my head is lying, lying
Oh glory
I think I see you 'round the bend
And I think I'd try any poison to get there in the end
[A mix of Anna throughout, from her doubts in Heaven to her return while brainwashed. In the end, no matter what she did, it was all to stop the apocalypse, even if she wasn't herself when she returned, which I truly believe. Everything was to fix things. All she did was what she believed was right, from falling to trying to kill John and Mary. The glory is the future, is her hopes and dreams, her want to be a human, her desire for the war to end, everything. Anna is not perfect and she knows this. She's not the angel people expect her to be, nor I suspect was she the child her parents expected, given the stories of her early life. Nothing is right. But she continues on.]
03. Solider - Ingrid Michaelson
I don't believe in anything but myself
I don't believe in anything but myself
But then you opened up a door, you opened up a door
Now I start to believe in something else
But how do I know if I'll make it through?
How do I know? Where's the proof in you?
And so it goes, this soldier knows
The battle with the heart isn't easily won
And so it goes, this soldier knows
The battle with the heart isn't easily won
But it can be won, but it can be won
I sit in the back of a bus watching the world grow old
Watching the world go by all by myself
I took a faithful leap and packed up all my things
And all my love and gave it to somebody else
[Anna's fall. She loves God, she loves her siblings, but she can't stay in Heaven. She can't stay when she longs for the life of a human and Earth and freewill and everything that she can start to finally experience if she just falls. There's a parallel, I think, with the questioning in season 4, with trying to get through to Castiel. I see this as a reflection song, during the chorus, and a prelude to her regaining her grace. The mention of a solider worked best, I feel, because angels are soldiers-- Anna was a soldier as an angel, and she cannot escape that. This is her battle of heart versus head, and which one will be the victory.]
04. Starlight - Muse
Far away
This ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
Starlight
I will be chasing the starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore
Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive
...
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
[A tricky song that seems to be split between Heaven in general and...well, life. Anna's, I believe, a physical person. Anna loves physical contact. Touch. Everything she couldn't have in Heaven, she makes up for by living her life to the fullest on Earth. She couldn't have what she wanted when she was an angel, that life didn't work out for her. And now she must leave the life on Earth. She must let it disappear and drift away, and she must let her life on Earth die. It is a farewell to Anna Milton and a return to being Anna the angel, but at the same time it parallels what I believe to be her fall. It was difficult. It was painful. It is filled with regrets. There is joy and there is sorrow. And in the end, she must leave. She has hopes, and they are dashed. She must leave, but she continues to chase a happy life. The starlight. Even with doubts.]
05. Lost Realist - Trapt
My independence is calling my name.
A doubtful voice divides my faith.
My independence only hesitates.
An unsure choice, I can't embrace.
You're gonna have to carve me,
Carve me from stone,
Right to the bone,
Or I'll end up alone.
Playing the role
Of someone in control.
Why do I rush to slow down?
Why do I rush to slow down everything?
Why do I rush to slow down?
Why do I rush to slow down everything?
Will the dice ever roll?
When will I ever know?
Will the plot ever twist,
Or will I still resist?
I've been playing the part of a lost realist.
My independence is turning the page,
Tomorrow comes, we start to fade.
My independence only complicates,
It's not enough to meet halfway.
You'll have to carve me,
Carve me from stone,
Right to the bone,
Or I'll end up alone.
Playing the role,
Of someone in control.
Why do I rush to slow down?
Why do I rush to slow down everything?
Why do I rush to slow down?
Why do I rush to slow down everything?
Will the dice ever roll?
When will I ever know?
Will the plot ever twist,
Or will I still resist?
I've been playing the part of a lost realist.
I only keep what I give away...
I only keep what I give away...
[I'll stop there, but that's nearly the whole song-- because even more than "Rabbit Heart [Raise it up]" which I believe to be the most Anna-centric song I'd found. This is the best song, I think, to capture not just her story, but her attitude, and thus why it's last. She is independent. She is different. Wild, but thoughtful. Not rash, she can't afford to be. She must think. She wants to live this life of a human, this slower life. She doesn't want all the power of an angel. Anna ends up with nothing, but damn if she doesn't try her hardest to help the boys before she gets tortured, damn if she doesn't try to save not just them but the world she loves. So many unanswered questions, and she really is unsure about so much, but she will be calm and collected. Like I said, she can't afford not to be.]
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Download .zip file here.
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-> Please tell me if you can't download the file, I'll upload it somewhere else.
-> If the link expires, just comment and I'll re-upload
-> Thanks so much again to Ryan and Kyrie, the former for my random musings and assuring me about the cover, and the latter for recommending Ingrid Michaelson. Wouldn't be able to live without you, girl!
-> Comments are love! If you download, try and give a shout, share your thoughts, alright? :)