Deep Thought...or at least I'd like to think so

[digging_a_ditch]

Why is it such a natural thing for someone to want to find another that they can hold on to so tight, they'd feel like they had died if they ever had to let go? It's really quite annoying, but at the same time you know that if you ever find that person, you'll be happier than you've ever been in your whole life.

I think it's the reason I've become such an irritable guy. The smallest things can get to me so much. I start to do things I normally wouldn't do. Or even stop doing things I used to love.

I used to love playing video games all day long. And it's not that I don't anymore. I just can't sit there and do anything anymore and truely enjoy it like I used to. Hell, I have a hard enough time sitting in front of my piano playing things I like to play for long periods of time. It's starting to scare me. I seriously think I've lost myself, if that makes any sense.

I'll go over to my friends apartment not to smoke pot, but to try and get away from that empty feeling of being alone. I can't even stand being by myself for more than an hour anymore. When I'm by myself, I start to find myself in a place I'd rather not be. That's when I'll always get in my car in drive.

I really want to get over this, but I don't know what to do or even what I need anymore. I just know that I need help.

Or maybe just her...whoever she is.

Two jumps in a week, I bet you think that's pretty clever don't you, boy?
Flying on your motorcycle, watching all the ground beneath you drop.
You kill yourself for recognition. You kill yourself to never ever stop
You broke another mirror. You're turning into something you are not.

Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry

Drying up in conversation, you will be the one who cannot talk.
All your insides fall to pieces, you just sit there wishing you could still make love
They're the ones who'll hate you, when you think you've got the world all sussed out
They're the ones who'll spit at you, You will be the one screaming out.

Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me

It's the best thing you have ever had, it’s the best thing you have ever had.

Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry...

Musically,

Tim