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today has been a rollar coaster! I dont even know why.... nothing is going wrong in my life? I'm scared this isn't gonna work out and it will end up being another waste of time... my heart can't take another dissapointment.... its hard giving you my heart... i'm really trying to be the best for you... it scares me knowing what my life was like 5 yrs ago and the things that i thought were so real are gone....if that happens again that means your just another thing thats going to be 5 yrs ago.... I'm sry for the girl i was before... If I could I would go back and slap the girl i was... I wish I could see you and tell you how much ive changed and how much ive accomplished...i cant look back and think i didn't do enough in my life... I need someone to love me so much it hurts and honestly i'm scared it will pass me by... I need you to go on this adventure with me... this is difficult