godDAMMIT!!!
So, I was on my way home from work last night. I did have a few drinks, but I busted out the breathalyzer to check and see how I was doing, and the numbers were fine.
Well, I reached down to grab something, and swerved, then lost control of the car. It flipped, and ended up on its side, and I got thrown out of my seatbelt.
I'm ok.
Unfortunately, due the fact that I had a BAC PERIOD, I'm quite possibly being charged with a second dui.
I'm done. I'm not fucking this one up. I'm going to get a badass lawyer, and due to the fact that my BAC was SO low, I'm praying that I can get the charge knocked down some. Either way, I'm done drinking - obviously I can't control myself. Straight up, I'm considering REQUESTING a damn SCRAM tether to show how serious I am about it. I landed in jail because I kept messing up my probation, and there's no way that's going to be happening again.
Unfortunately, the car is TOTALLED. Completely. I went to get my stuff out of there, and I started shaking and went into shock right then and there. I walked out with a bump on my shoulder, slight whiplash, and a lil bump on my head.
I honestly have no idea what's going on, besides the fact that I'm depressed due to the fact that I was such a goddamn idiot. So if you guys can say a prayer for me, I'd appreciate it.
Either way, I'm done drinking. Maybe someday I'll be able to have a glass of wine again, but until that point comes? Nada. It's not worth it, and I just don't know if I can go thru this all again (again being this time). I'm going to just have to focus on finding ways to cope that are productive, because clearly I didn't work thru enough in my head last time.
I've already talked to my substance abuse councelor, and due to the fact that I don't have access to a car right now, we're doing phone meetings several times a week.
I just can't believe I'd be that stupid again. I'm such a fucking idiot.
Well, I reached down to grab something, and swerved, then lost control of the car. It flipped, and ended up on its side, and I got thrown out of my seatbelt.
I'm ok.
Unfortunately, due the fact that I had a BAC PERIOD, I'm quite possibly being charged with a second dui.
I'm done. I'm not fucking this one up. I'm going to get a badass lawyer, and due to the fact that my BAC was SO low, I'm praying that I can get the charge knocked down some. Either way, I'm done drinking - obviously I can't control myself. Straight up, I'm considering REQUESTING a damn SCRAM tether to show how serious I am about it. I landed in jail because I kept messing up my probation, and there's no way that's going to be happening again.
Unfortunately, the car is TOTALLED. Completely. I went to get my stuff out of there, and I started shaking and went into shock right then and there. I walked out with a bump on my shoulder, slight whiplash, and a lil bump on my head.
I honestly have no idea what's going on, besides the fact that I'm depressed due to the fact that I was such a goddamn idiot. So if you guys can say a prayer for me, I'd appreciate it.
Either way, I'm done drinking. Maybe someday I'll be able to have a glass of wine again, but until that point comes? Nada. It's not worth it, and I just don't know if I can go thru this all again (again being this time). I'm going to just have to focus on finding ways to cope that are productive, because clearly I didn't work thru enough in my head last time.
I've already talked to my substance abuse councelor, and due to the fact that I don't have access to a car right now, we're doing phone meetings several times a week.
I just can't believe I'd be that stupid again. I'm such a fucking idiot.