Gone
Its all gone, all of it, there isn't any left.i'm broken, i was shattered to a million pieces. my motivation, goals, desires, and my will to live, they are all gone, i don't know why i do anything any more, i no longer live life, i don't want to, i don't want to live or die, just not exist. if breathing wasn't programed into my subconscious, i wouldn't do it. i don't think that i will ever be whole again. most ppl when they are like this say that they are an empty shell, i know tht i am not, anger and sadness is all i really have left, my anger cources through my vains, its the only thing that keeps from dying in my sleep, i can feel it burn within my what i guess i would call my soul. i failed, i failed my parents my friends and most of all ME. i have failed in and at life, but i have not failed the world, it failed me, it is the reason i am like this. it has not given me a reason to live, it has not showen me anything to strive for, it failed, it failed ME.
to my friends i am srry for not keeping my word, to my self i am just plain srry, to my parents i am srry for being a disapointment, but there is one thing that i can never forgive you for, i will always resent you for haveing me, i hate you for bringing me into this place, and to the world I HATE YOU, you did not do your job, you were meant to be something that i would want to be in, but no you aren't, i hate being here, i hate you because, because og you all that i feel is hate, anger, and pure blackness, you didn't fail other ppl, so why did you have to fail me. you let me down GOD DAMN IT, fuck you, was this what you wanted me to be, someone driven only by hate and anger, cause if it was then you got your damn wish,
and so thus another soul is lost forever, broken by sadness, then rebuilt by anger, then used as fuel to feed the fire of hate, another soul never to feel, happieness, joy, and hope, but worst of all never to feel love again
So am I still waiting
For this world to stop hating
Can't find a good reason
Can't find hope to believe
This can't last forever
Time won't make things better
I feel so alone
Can't help myself
And no one knows
If this is worthless
Tell me
So
to my friends i am srry for not keeping my word, to my self i am just plain srry, to my parents i am srry for being a disapointment, but there is one thing that i can never forgive you for, i will always resent you for haveing me, i hate you for bringing me into this place, and to the world I HATE YOU, you did not do your job, you were meant to be something that i would want to be in, but no you aren't, i hate being here, i hate you because, because og you all that i feel is hate, anger, and pure blackness, you didn't fail other ppl, so why did you have to fail me. you let me down GOD DAMN IT, fuck you, was this what you wanted me to be, someone driven only by hate and anger, cause if it was then you got your damn wish,
and so thus another soul is lost forever, broken by sadness, then rebuilt by anger, then used as fuel to feed the fire of hate, another soul never to feel, happieness, joy, and hope, but worst of all never to feel love again
So am I still waiting
For this world to stop hating
Can't find a good reason
Can't find hope to believe
This can't last forever
Time won't make things better
I feel so alone
Can't help myself
And no one knows
If this is worthless
Tell me
So