May 07, 2010 20:20
1 Advice solicited on how to be, think, and feel nonmonogamous.
Largely, since ye ol' hormone surge of '07 I've been nonmonog or single. Combined with unsuitable partners and tenacious refusal of letting people get close to me emotionally, it's worked well.
But I while I feel that coming to a welcome close, I am still happy with the idea of being nonmonog, and having nonmonog partners. However, I feel unprepared on how to react when I see a friend leaving the apt. with who I want to believe was his sister. It's likely she was, but I want not to care. I want not to get that andrenaline surge that just happened to me, me dio coraje.
I'm not trying to find necessarily a whole new ideology. Some of it I've got, but an ideology can be really limiting, and not being limited is what it's all about.
2 Second thing, I'm thinkin o' getting rid of this mother. I never wanted that much social networking, and I've come to the conclusion that, living in a different country than most people I know, I literally don't have time to even email all the people I want to, not to mention the Facebook messages, googles, wiki searches, Couchsurfing friends, job searches that happen online. If I had a music it would be worse, if I actually did anything with my photos, worse, once I figure out how to Skype it will be worse, and better. Plus this is personal jam, I worry that it's traceable. Plus since FB, people use it less and in less interesting ways, and since Twitter people keep twittering their little nitwit whims (no, uh, offense intended)
Your thoughts?
de-socialization,
mature,
dear diary,
love,
sex,
feelings