I didn't think it was going to be this bad
I've only been back for a day and a half and all I want to do is go back to college.
It's really lonely here. I didn't see one friend today, not one hug, not one smile.
My dad woke me up at 9:30 telling me he really needed someone to mow lawns and fields at one of the mobile home parks.. I planned on looking for jobs today. I mowed for three and a half hours.
Then I went to cicero looking for an ice cream job, then I pretty much came home after eating a vanilla cone.
oy, i just really miss jon. kind of hard going from seeing someone for hours everyday for a few months straight to just some phone calls and im conversations.
i really want this summer to go by fast. there's not much here for me. i dont even have my own room. im living out of my suitcase i packed at college until thursday.
my mom is moving the office out where the tv and i am now, and im going to take the office and sleep on a futon i have to assemble for three months with the tv in there too. it'll be like.. a small tv room + Diana's room. i really just want a space to myself..
but theres so much stuff that there has to be done. cleaning, rearranging, getting new furniture, cleaning out, throwing away. we're even having a garage sale this weekend.
i just really want to see some people, be with someone, see a friend, or have some sort of plans to look forward to.
this whole coming home and watching tv and going online and playing chess thing is not working.
i really miss jon
a lot
i just hope i get used to everything soon
It's really lonely here. I didn't see one friend today, not one hug, not one smile.
My dad woke me up at 9:30 telling me he really needed someone to mow lawns and fields at one of the mobile home parks.. I planned on looking for jobs today. I mowed for three and a half hours.
Then I went to cicero looking for an ice cream job, then I pretty much came home after eating a vanilla cone.
oy, i just really miss jon. kind of hard going from seeing someone for hours everyday for a few months straight to just some phone calls and im conversations.
i really want this summer to go by fast. there's not much here for me. i dont even have my own room. im living out of my suitcase i packed at college until thursday.
my mom is moving the office out where the tv and i am now, and im going to take the office and sleep on a futon i have to assemble for three months with the tv in there too. it'll be like.. a small tv room + Diana's room. i really just want a space to myself..
but theres so much stuff that there has to be done. cleaning, rearranging, getting new furniture, cleaning out, throwing away. we're even having a garage sale this weekend.
i just really want to see some people, be with someone, see a friend, or have some sort of plans to look forward to.
this whole coming home and watching tv and going online and playing chess thing is not working.
i really miss jon
a lot
i just hope i get used to everything soon