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Everyone's afraid of the future, because of the uncertaintly of it all, right?
mmm.. that's me.
My mom doesnt believe in me in psychology. I was telling her about my literature class, and how in the stories I miss a lot of symbols or hints, or that I beleieve almost every single thing that the author is writing. I'm not suspicious enough, I don't think about whether the point of view is biased, and if it is, I can't see whats real and what isnt. ack.
Apparently in 5th grade my teacher tried reching out to me and make me read books, but i never really picked up on anything. I'm not a big reader.
Anyhow, lacking these comprehension skills my mother is concerned with my new major. She also thinks the world is going to slap me in the face one day because I am so trusting.
but if it's true that I really can't become a therapist or that I really can't help people this way, I really really have no idea what I want to do.
She thinks that I should get good at something else, except.. I don't think I have 10 years to spend on something new like I did with music.
I should know what I want to do. My parents put a lot of pressure on me. They don't like the answer "I don't know"...so the next best thing is to be enthusiastic about finding the answer. I'm not too enthusiastic about my future..
In the summer I guess I'll be a little lonely without Jon around, but thats okay. I'll have a full time job, or two part time jobs and just be working all the time. I'll have to hand over $4000 to my parents.
I have to find a new college to go to for psychology (even if my mom doesnt believe in me?)
I'll go to potsdam for fall semester.. but spring semester I should be somewhere else, and probably away from Jon. I really don't like that.
I just feel like I'm going to end up being nothing because psych wont work out for some reason.. I'll end up like my brother..minus getting arrested and being gross.. I'll be doing some odd job, even if I am as smart as some people say or believe I won't get anywhere with it because iiiiiiiiii don't have the confidence.
I don't know what I want. threguojidfklmabhoeijrdfkl
mmm.. that's me.
My mom doesnt believe in me in psychology. I was telling her about my literature class, and how in the stories I miss a lot of symbols or hints, or that I beleieve almost every single thing that the author is writing. I'm not suspicious enough, I don't think about whether the point of view is biased, and if it is, I can't see whats real and what isnt. ack.
Apparently in 5th grade my teacher tried reching out to me and make me read books, but i never really picked up on anything. I'm not a big reader.
Anyhow, lacking these comprehension skills my mother is concerned with my new major. She also thinks the world is going to slap me in the face one day because I am so trusting.
but if it's true that I really can't become a therapist or that I really can't help people this way, I really really have no idea what I want to do.
She thinks that I should get good at something else, except.. I don't think I have 10 years to spend on something new like I did with music.
I should know what I want to do. My parents put a lot of pressure on me. They don't like the answer "I don't know"...so the next best thing is to be enthusiastic about finding the answer. I'm not too enthusiastic about my future..
In the summer I guess I'll be a little lonely without Jon around, but thats okay. I'll have a full time job, or two part time jobs and just be working all the time. I'll have to hand over $4000 to my parents.
I have to find a new college to go to for psychology (even if my mom doesnt believe in me?)
I'll go to potsdam for fall semester.. but spring semester I should be somewhere else, and probably away from Jon. I really don't like that.
I just feel like I'm going to end up being nothing because psych wont work out for some reason.. I'll end up like my brother..minus getting arrested and being gross.. I'll be doing some odd job, even if I am as smart as some people say or believe I won't get anywhere with it because iiiiiiiiii don't have the confidence.
I don't know what I want. threguojidfklmabhoeijrdfkl