Tears without laughter
Well, If you don't want to hear me rant about auditions, READ NO FURTHER. To put it mildly, I SUCKED. I was completely nervous the entire time before the audition which was two hours. They added lines so I had to get the words from Mrs. K who said that she would come down later for the auditions so I figured that she would be in there. Well she wasnt so that was one less person who wouldn't be glaring at me. Then Ms Brett left and at that point I paniced I hadent even gone in for warm up yet and I was freaking out. It was horrible, I downed my entire evain bottle (an aside for two seconds, Jeff Tatanus pointed out to me that evain is niave spelled backwards, irony). So then when we went in for warmup, well let me just say that Steve sounded horrible. but I wasnt that much better, Then when we (the six of us) finish warm uo, we turn and face Mancini and he asked if any of us didnt want to come back for the solo audition. How forboding. So anyway, I go out in the hall and wait. He comes out and bangs his fists on the lockers and screams. OMG. I was trying to calm down along with other people and it was very rude. Everyone was like "was that necessary?" and he was like "Yeah, I needed to let out a scream after that". SO because It had really disturbed me and others I said "How horribly rude can you be? You asshole we were all quiet for you and so you just shove your anger up your ass. P.S. I heard you sing during warm up, don't expect a big singing part and maybe I don't know try to get a range of more than two notes." SO then some someone else went in and then it was me. let me just say first that the piece was very hard and there were two spots where there was no where to breathe, so I go in and observe who is there. mancini, shook, ferris, and keach are at a table facing you.Mannion, Ally, Mancini's kids, Howie, Stephie, and Jay where also there.Mancini's wife played the piano. I had never met he before, she was really kind and patient. Ms Brett had told me not to look at Ferris AT ALL but i kinda slipped up. I was still shaking, I had been since 3 and it got worse after Steve. So Mancini asked a couple of questions which I dont even remember. So I start. I started alright, I had all my counts on. That's where the good news ends. I couldnt get a breath and completely stopped. BIG MISTAKE. I KNOW. so then I start from the beginning. Mancini was very indescript, Keach looked questioningly at me, shook just looked, and that leaves Ferris. Those eyes which seem to bore into your soul. It was really...scarry. It was like "is that all you got?" so then I start up from the beginning and get past that part but them mess up the lyrics. It wasnt that good. I seriously wanted to run out of the audition. SO I pick it up from where I dropped it and then have to read the lyrics off my sheat for a while. Then I guess it ended well. I think I ended really well. When I finished. I felt like I was going to die. And then Ferris asks me "Do you have asthema?" I just stood there. I knew I had doen terrible, But that made me feel all the worst. Two seconds later I answered him "No" Without waiting to be asked to leave, I turned and rushed out. The worst audition on record for me at least. I seriously dont want to have to audition tomorrow, but I have no choice I have two more years. I just want to get a big box of Godiva chocolate and eat it all and cry. Plus I have dance tomorrow. Im not looking forward to it.