Comments | diamondjul: I am in repair.

diamondjul

I am in repair.

Oct 03, 2006 18:01

I feel like I am drowning. I can't breathe. I can't find the surface. I don't really want to. I want to stay under the water and drown there. I am not trying hard enough. Why can't I try harder, be stronger? I am sorry. I know I need to let it go and to move on but I can't. I am not as good as everyone else. I am not cut out for it. I ( Read more... )

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magermallow October 4 2006, 04:36:33 UTC

shutup, you know i'll always listen. It's not fucked up to be depressed when you ahve a bad breakup. It's supposed to technically take you half the time you went out to fully get over it. So you're normal. And since your breakoff wasnt so clean cut, you're half way point is probably longer than it actually should be. I'll listen and you'll be fine, i swear.

diamondjul October 4 2006, 12:52:38 UTC

Uggh I don't know if I can take two more months of this. UGGGGIEEE!!!!! Thank you though, you're the best ever.

magermallow October 4 2006, 17:33:26 UTC

quite alright, and hey if it makes you feel any better, I know a girl who was going out with someone for 6 years and then something went wrong, now theres alot of depression time... 3 whopping years holy cow.

diamondjul October 4 2006, 17:42:00 UTC

Whoa. I would have to die. 6 years of being with someone and then BAM! And 3 years to get over it. Thats 9 years of life wasted. Que horrible!

anonymous October 5 2006, 14:36:47 UTC

Hi Julie, it's Jenny. In my nosy bored quest, I stumbled upon your LJ and I feel awful. What you're going through sucks, BAD. It's even worse because it's the first REAL one. But it does get better and I know people will not appreciate what I'm going to tell you b/c ... well it's hard to let go. But the best way to get over it is to just stop it. Like the real kind of stopping where you don't hang out alone and you don't call each other every night and you don't under ANY circumstances let him kiss you :) you know? And it's so hard b/c he's the one you're used to calling when you have something important or sad or happy to share. I've tried the let's be friends with benefits and while I don't expect you to listen to me (because we never do lol) I will tell you that if you really DO want to be friends, it is going to take a lot of work, a lot of time and lot of heartbreak but if that's really what you want, it will be worth it in the end. I'm pretty good friends with both of my exes but it was in no way easy and it took a really long ( ... )

diamondjul October 5 2006, 15:57:36 UTC

Oh Jenny. Thank you so much for that. That was really nice. Like you have no idea because I have no sisters and Christy has been such a help but I can only lean on her so much you know? So thank you so much for your words of wisdom!!!

And some Flavor Flaaaav season finale sounds like just what I need!!!!!!!