if only CCTV could make me control myself
shit, i almost mananged 5 days without binging-purging, with strong emphasis on almost.
this is what i ate today.
lunch (at 1.30 pm): oatmeal, wild rose soup.
dinner: small portion pasta with fake-cheese sause (vegan and alomst calorie free!), boiled carrot and orange for dessert.
my plan was to have a fruit salad later, but my evil flatmate had made an apple pie. i just had a tinytiny piece, realised i didn't like it, but after a while i stood there with the whole piece in my mouth. a bit later, whilst i was cleaning in the kitchen my other flatmate came in. she had her piece of the cake and also said she didn't like it that much. we started talking about all these yummi apple crumbles our moms or grandmoms make. as soon as my flatmate went back into her room again, i started to make a pie. just a small one, but had lots of dough on the side aswell. ate it all. said to myself: "well, now you've had it, then you must keep it instead". Five minutes later i was in the bath room...
where is the control? where is the satisfaction??
this is what i ate today.
lunch (at 1.30 pm): oatmeal, wild rose soup.
dinner: small portion pasta with fake-cheese sause (vegan and alomst calorie free!), boiled carrot and orange for dessert.
my plan was to have a fruit salad later, but my evil flatmate had made an apple pie. i just had a tinytiny piece, realised i didn't like it, but after a while i stood there with the whole piece in my mouth. a bit later, whilst i was cleaning in the kitchen my other flatmate came in. she had her piece of the cake and also said she didn't like it that much. we started talking about all these yummi apple crumbles our moms or grandmoms make. as soon as my flatmate went back into her room again, i started to make a pie. just a small one, but had lots of dough on the side aswell. ate it all. said to myself: "well, now you've had it, then you must keep it instead". Five minutes later i was in the bath room...
where is the control? where is the satisfaction??