Goodbye Connecticut!!!
I feel much better about everything now that I've finally made a decision. After much deliberation it's come down to this: I'm going back to Alfred to work at an outpatient clinic for people with emotional problems. I'm cutting out early on my job at Spencers, which makes me feel like an asshole, but I have no other choice. I feel an immense about of relief in deciding this. Now, I just have to carry out my plan. Plus, I get to have my FREEDOM and INDEPENDENCE. I get my to live ON MY OWN and Emma is letting me use her car while she is at camp for six weeks, which is amazing. :) So I will be able to do what I want, when I want.
So there it is. If I can avoid it (and believe me I'm going to try) I will never live in CT again. I can get the hell out of this state. Away from the traffic and pollution and unreliable people and this high stress house with these high stress people. Don't get me wrong, I love my family, but there comes a point in your life when you relize that you have to stop living the life other people want you to live and start living the life YOU want to live. It sucks because I know that there are going to be people who are upset with me for leaving and I really don't want to let anyone down. But it comes down to this: I am not happy here and if you really love me then you would never ask me to be somewhere that makes me unhappy.
This is not to say that I won't come an visit. I definately plan on visiting often, especially once I get a car of my own. So, if anyone wants directions to Alfred, just ask, cause that's where I'll be.
So there it is. If I can avoid it (and believe me I'm going to try) I will never live in CT again. I can get the hell out of this state. Away from the traffic and pollution and unreliable people and this high stress house with these high stress people. Don't get me wrong, I love my family, but there comes a point in your life when you relize that you have to stop living the life other people want you to live and start living the life YOU want to live. It sucks because I know that there are going to be people who are upset with me for leaving and I really don't want to let anyone down. But it comes down to this: I am not happy here and if you really love me then you would never ask me to be somewhere that makes me unhappy.
This is not to say that I won't come an visit. I definately plan on visiting often, especially once I get a car of my own. So, if anyone wants directions to Alfred, just ask, cause that's where I'll be.