the end to all ends

[dialmyvial]

you know on december 28th 2003 i started to date the most wonderful girl in the world... i thought i found the one... hell i still do think that... she said that she had her last straw on newyears eve... and to be honest that was the day i found the true power of love... and the devestating force of finding out the feeling isnt mutual... its not

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[indigojferret]

Heh.. You have to give yourself some credit though; It's not your fault that a lot of the people you meet turn out to be total douchebags. In which case, it's not a bad thing that you don't want them around.

Apart from that, I still don't really know what to say about the situation, even though I've had a lot of time to think about it. Losing at love sucks, but it's way better to have it and lose it than it is to be one of those people who are afraid to let themselves catch it at all. I mean, you probably feel really empty when you think about it, but eventually that goes away and you start to appreciate how magical it was that it happened at all. I still feel... well... nostalgic about certain things that've happened to me, but it's kind of nuts when you think about it... I mean, it's a significant thing. You really learn something when you can admit that there are things you won't use apathy to push away into the background. So, my advice, if I have any, is to let it sting like you were just punched in the face. Eventually, you'll probably look back and be glad that it happened, and feel proud that you learned how to take a punch the hard way. I know it's cliche, but optimism and endurance go hand in hand.

[dialmyvial]

yeah, but it just feels like its all my fault when i know its not, and i still live with her possibly for a whole more month... it just feels like... well, i dont know know what it feels like... thats why i am so ripped up about all of this... she is starting to make our relationship seem like me and my moms relationship... (besides the fact i didnt/will never sleep with my mom) she tells me i am showing emotions that i wasnt and that i whine about things... but its like right after i bring something up... so its starting to set in that one day our ways are going to part in a horrible way and i will never see her again... except this time i will actualy love the person... its really fucking me up inside man... i cant go to sleep till 6 or 7 in the morning... hmph... i hope your online...

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