Recent Health Challenges (and Rambling)
I think my recent energy level has dropped a lot,
and it has moreso to do with how serious I've become...
Yes, I'm trying (and succeeding) in making serious
changes, but also, I need to remember that life is
meant for enjoyment as well as accomplishment.
Anyhow, it is difficult to say how much is me being lazy,
and how much is me being overheated,
and what to do about it in the short term...
in the medium term, I'm getting a cooling system installed,
and also generating more revenue... somehow...
Well, for sure, I can't really do much with things
the way they are right now... it's hard not to be sad
or identify too strongy with my pain, but everything I want
to do requires a studio and the studio is too hot to work,
so that's the paradox, eh... I can go outside,be a bit cooler,
or go to the beach (if not for thunderstorms), but I'd not
get anything accomplished... only more ideas that I couldn't realise
would come to me, making me feel even more frustrated.
On an emotional level, or a personal energy level, I think a disconnection
between my body and "spirits", something to do with liver function, is why
my ideas are too excessive... an excess of "Moon" energy... so that is
partly why I push to be inspired and let the "Sun" energy counter-balance it,
and also, why I've been taking frequently to lie down and practice reconnecting
to my body, trying to sense and rebalance the energies in my system (although
I wasn't very conscious until now that this is what I was doing, it was all
intuitive).
Well, I was gonna work on building a database server tonight... I still might... or I might go out and have sex... I mean, it's a no-brainer to choose the latter but I'm not sure if I'm in the mood for it. It's at times like this that I really feel the ... actually, it's not pain, it's more like a numb blankness... of not just being single, but being single whilst people are wanting and willing to be loved ior sexxed by me.
I dunno what I'm saying, really... so I'll just be quiet for now and... stuff.
and it has moreso to do with how serious I've become...
Yes, I'm trying (and succeeding) in making serious
changes, but also, I need to remember that life is
meant for enjoyment as well as accomplishment.
Anyhow, it is difficult to say how much is me being lazy,
and how much is me being overheated,
and what to do about it in the short term...
in the medium term, I'm getting a cooling system installed,
and also generating more revenue... somehow...
Well, for sure, I can't really do much with things
the way they are right now... it's hard not to be sad
or identify too strongy with my pain, but everything I want
to do requires a studio and the studio is too hot to work,
so that's the paradox, eh... I can go outside,be a bit cooler,
or go to the beach (if not for thunderstorms), but I'd not
get anything accomplished... only more ideas that I couldn't realise
would come to me, making me feel even more frustrated.
On an emotional level, or a personal energy level, I think a disconnection
between my body and "spirits", something to do with liver function, is why
my ideas are too excessive... an excess of "Moon" energy... so that is
partly why I push to be inspired and let the "Sun" energy counter-balance it,
and also, why I've been taking frequently to lie down and practice reconnecting
to my body, trying to sense and rebalance the energies in my system (although
I wasn't very conscious until now that this is what I was doing, it was all
intuitive).
Well, I was gonna work on building a database server tonight... I still might... or I might go out and have sex... I mean, it's a no-brainer to choose the latter but I'm not sure if I'm in the mood for it. It's at times like this that I really feel the ... actually, it's not pain, it's more like a numb blankness... of not just being single, but being single whilst people are wanting and willing to be loved ior sexxed by me.
I dunno what I'm saying, really... so I'll just be quiet for now and... stuff.