A Minor Rant.
I worked overtime on Saturday. It was fine, because I wasn't doing data entry,but, rather, some combination of filing and manual arithmetic and stuff. It was at a lower pay rate, but I did it anyways, because I needed the time in AC.
Now, as to getting my own AC, the only option I can see is actually apply myself directly to the problem... they are opportunities but I don't seem able to grasp them peoperly. I'll have to work on that.
Now, for the ranting:
Some big-name cash was invested in facebook, and already, it sucks, I mean, it had some flaws from the start, but now, it is almost as awful as the rest of the "spamne phish pond" that was once the World Wide Web. I don't anticipate it will change, but I did create a new profile and will carefully regulate it whilst I work on what to do to aboid gettign caught up in all the "scum"... in the long term, a facebook alternative would be necessary. It (facebook" started as a combination email and yearbook for college grads, so a private network for my friends is not so hard to imagine as being scalalbe to zillions... but the aim would actually be to avoid becoming too big... rather than people meeting on the fb-alt, they would just use it to keep track of people. So, no commercial model would exist directly, but I had a few ideas how I can make it break even, at least... andwoithout annoying adversising, or spam.
More ranting.... I'm awake at 3 a.m. because it took me this long to "settle myself" since I got home from work around 6 p.m. last night. Yeah, I'm amazed it's been... 9 hours... as well, that's more than a normal work day, ain't it? Well, about time for a break so... I was gonna go play P3 but instead I think I'll prep something to eat and then do some chi kung, or at least some stretching or something.
More ranting... I feel that I should be doing a lot more, but I realise that my plannign and control systems (or abilities) are a bit low nowadays, which is partly why I chose that degree (CS joint Mgmt), but since I have hardly been paying attention to it, tonight I pushed myself to read more of my Info. Sys. book (it's the textbook for an MIS course). It is a very interesting, practical book, but I set myself the goal of reading to the end of Chapter 4 tonight, not knowing at the time that I had 80 more pages to go (the length of chapters 1, 2, and part of 3 was less than the 80 pages to the end of part 4).
Well, I'll try my best, even if I just skim the material, because I have realised that I've been sorta ... knocking myself out, not literally, but by just ... being so passive and forgetting my dreams and ambitons and not evne tyring to work on them really anymore... the only time I seem to remember is when I hit a big blockage...
So, I don't have a choice anymore... I can't pretend that I can be happy in a regular job... I'm a tool-maker, which is why, to me, words, or software, or people in an organisation...a re all part of a system, and making the system... ior the tools to make the system... it is different each time in the same way that an artistic painter may do a different painting every time, but the process can be viewed as the same process, just with different details... to paint on a canvas is to paint on a canvas... and to me, to build software is the same as writing words to humans, at least, on a "big picture" level, and that's also the same as building a business.
When people asked me what kind of busiess I'm interesting in doing, I found the question sorta... sideways... to answer.. because to me, business are all the same and it is more up to a zillion variables what "type" it is than it is up to me, I'm most the facilitator that brings those parts together.
Of course, I'm saying this as if I'm already rich, successful, managing people... when I'm at the totally opposite end of the spectrum. However, somehow, I can't help but feel confident, opptomistic, and sure that the path I'm taking is taking me closer to fully frealising my dreams, or experiencing the manifestation of the desires of my heart... even if I stuggle to rationally explain why.
Emotions empower humans to move... for me, my emotions me be based on a path which is rare but I don't think it is entirely without precedent, nor that it is really that hard to describe... I'm just a bit inept at that area... and more importantly, I prefer to do stuff than talk about it.
Ranting on Yet Still, I read "The Vampire Lestat" (an Anne Rice novel) before its prequel, "Blackwood Farm". I'm not sur ehwy I committed this error in continutiy. It might have something to do with the books not having idiot-proof numbering (or any numbering that I can see), and thus, me ignorantly reading them at random... but, you know, that's Anne Rice's fault for not considering those of us who are idiots, ain't it? I can't help being silly. :P~.
I think, for now, I shall stop writing... esp. if I intend to eat and study before dawn.
Now, as to getting my own AC, the only option I can see is actually apply myself directly to the problem... they are opportunities but I don't seem able to grasp them peoperly. I'll have to work on that.
Now, for the ranting:
Some big-name cash was invested in facebook, and already, it sucks, I mean, it had some flaws from the start, but now, it is almost as awful as the rest of the "spamne phish pond" that was once the World Wide Web. I don't anticipate it will change, but I did create a new profile and will carefully regulate it whilst I work on what to do to aboid gettign caught up in all the "scum"... in the long term, a facebook alternative would be necessary. It (facebook" started as a combination email and yearbook for college grads, so a private network for my friends is not so hard to imagine as being scalalbe to zillions... but the aim would actually be to avoid becoming too big... rather than people meeting on the fb-alt, they would just use it to keep track of people. So, no commercial model would exist directly, but I had a few ideas how I can make it break even, at least... andwoithout annoying adversising, or spam.
More ranting.... I'm awake at 3 a.m. because it took me this long to "settle myself" since I got home from work around 6 p.m. last night. Yeah, I'm amazed it's been... 9 hours... as well, that's more than a normal work day, ain't it? Well, about time for a break so... I was gonna go play P3 but instead I think I'll prep something to eat and then do some chi kung, or at least some stretching or something.
More ranting... I feel that I should be doing a lot more, but I realise that my plannign and control systems (or abilities) are a bit low nowadays, which is partly why I chose that degree (CS joint Mgmt), but since I have hardly been paying attention to it, tonight I pushed myself to read more of my Info. Sys. book (it's the textbook for an MIS course). It is a very interesting, practical book, but I set myself the goal of reading to the end of Chapter 4 tonight, not knowing at the time that I had 80 more pages to go (the length of chapters 1, 2, and part of 3 was less than the 80 pages to the end of part 4).
Well, I'll try my best, even if I just skim the material, because I have realised that I've been sorta ... knocking myself out, not literally, but by just ... being so passive and forgetting my dreams and ambitons and not evne tyring to work on them really anymore... the only time I seem to remember is when I hit a big blockage...
So, I don't have a choice anymore... I can't pretend that I can be happy in a regular job... I'm a tool-maker, which is why, to me, words, or software, or people in an organisation...a re all part of a system, and making the system... ior the tools to make the system... it is different each time in the same way that an artistic painter may do a different painting every time, but the process can be viewed as the same process, just with different details... to paint on a canvas is to paint on a canvas... and to me, to build software is the same as writing words to humans, at least, on a "big picture" level, and that's also the same as building a business.
When people asked me what kind of busiess I'm interesting in doing, I found the question sorta... sideways... to answer.. because to me, business are all the same and it is more up to a zillion variables what "type" it is than it is up to me, I'm most the facilitator that brings those parts together.
Of course, I'm saying this as if I'm already rich, successful, managing people... when I'm at the totally opposite end of the spectrum. However, somehow, I can't help but feel confident, opptomistic, and sure that the path I'm taking is taking me closer to fully frealising my dreams, or experiencing the manifestation of the desires of my heart... even if I stuggle to rationally explain why.
Emotions empower humans to move... for me, my emotions me be based on a path which is rare but I don't think it is entirely without precedent, nor that it is really that hard to describe... I'm just a bit inept at that area... and more importantly, I prefer to do stuff than talk about it.
Ranting on Yet Still, I read "The Vampire Lestat" (an Anne Rice novel) before its prequel, "Blackwood Farm". I'm not sur ehwy I committed this error in continutiy. It might have something to do with the books not having idiot-proof numbering (or any numbering that I can see), and thus, me ignorantly reading them at random... but, you know, that's Anne Rice's fault for not considering those of us who are idiots, ain't it? I can't help being silly. :P~.
I think, for now, I shall stop writing... esp. if I intend to eat and study before dawn.