Letter for you
Dear, Seo Joo Hyun.
I have so much to say through this letter and I am worried if this can be a really long one, or even worse, a novel.
I want to take a little journey back to our first meeting. I still remember it all, Joohyun. What you wore, how you looked, how awkward it was for us. I remembered how you were easily tricked t believe that Jungshin was your husband. Luckily, he wasn’t. Or else I would be so jealous of him just like how my members were jealous of me. It’s a fateful meeting, I must say. Why? Because from that day on, my life wasn’t the same anymore.
I don’t know how you do it, how you make me feel so loved in every little things you do for me. You weren’t good in expressing yourself but through your actions I knew you cared for me and that was enough. Little by little, you opened yourself to me. Your unique sense of humor, your witty side, and your crunchy laughs, I could see them bit by bit. You slowly felt comfortable around me and I felt the same way. Maybe more. We both fell deeper and deeper each day, into something that we both didn’t know. A world that we weren’t allowed to visit but yet we did. Something was happening to me, Hyun-ah. And I could not help but to wonder if you felt the same way.
But we were both cowards, weren’t we? Or should I say, I was the coward between us? In the end, it should be the guy who closed the deal, the one who supposed to put the name in our relationship was me but I never did.
We decided to become friends after WGM ended. Heck, I even hated the name of it though I did not say anything to you. We kept in touch but that slowly killed me. Being your best friend wasn’t a good thing for my heart, Seo Joo Hyun. The thought you with other guys kept me awake at nights. When you called me in wee hours just to tell me how a male Idol got your number in a way you didn’t know, I wanted to rush to you and tell you not to respond him. But who I was to say that, anyway? So I kept my silence and we moved on with our lives.
I dated several women, you dated several guys. And between that, we managed to still be friends. The crazy thing was, I could not tone down my jealousy whenever you’re dating someone. I was such a bad guy, wasn’t I? I had a girlfriend but still, you were the one holding my heart. Was I that kind of jerk Joohyun? You once told me that I shouldn’t be playing with girls’ hearts. Did I do that Joohyun? That’s because the girl I hold dearly inside seemed oblivious to my feelings. It sounds so wrong, I know. And I’m sorry for that.
In nights, I thought about how we ended this way. How the heck would I be friends with you and not more than that? Why can’t I bring myself to ask you if you love me the way I love you? Why can’t I be the one holding your hand like Junsu Hyung does? Why can’t I be the one hugging you at nights? Why wasn’t I the one who has the right to kiss your lips? I was losing my mind because of you. Always, because of you
At one point, I decided that it was enough, that this mildang is over. It musts be the longest mildang period in the history. How many years? 6! 6 freaking years, Seo Joo Hyun. I don’t even know what’s really going on anymore. One thing I knew was that you’re still the one. You’re still the girl who took my breath away, who made me feel the butterflies inside my stomach, who made my heart beats faster, who can hurt me like no one else could. It’s you. Always been you.
I didn’t mind to wait for a while more. Until your heart was ready. Until it healed from your last break up.
That night, I gathered up my courage to knock on you apartment’s door. And when you opened it I could see the surprised look on your face. I rushed to hug you, not minding how wet I was from the rain. You stiffened for a minute. I was afraid that you didn’t feel the same way as me. Maybe, after 6 years, you really did move on. Maybe, I did not have a place in your heart anymore. Not in the way I wanted it to.
But I was willing to risk anything. It’s gotta be over. In a good way or a bad way. So I kneeled down in front of you. I could feel the lump in my throat, clogging it. After some time, those words came out from my mouth. “Will you be my girlfriend, Joohyun-ah?”
You gasped but your eyes softened. You nodded, holding my hands and helped me get up. “Finally” I could hear your whisper in my ears when you hugged me. I could not describe my feeling in words. It was just amazing and I thought my heart was going to burst. That night, you made me the happiest man on earth.
Through this letter, Seo Joo Hyun. I am going to ask you for a favor. Will you make me the happiest man on earth once again?
Will you marry me, Seo Joo Hyun?
Yours, Jung Yong Hwa.
“Oppa! Dinner is ready! Come out now! What takes you so long to change your clothes anyway?” Yonghwa can hear Seohyun’s voice from his room.
He folds the paper. A smile appears on his lips as he thinks he has done a really good job. In a hurry, he comes out from his room, wearing formal attire.
“Why are you wearing that at home?” Seohyun eyes him quizzically.
“Isn’t it nice?”
“Uh-huh, just… It doesn’t really match the occasion now. We are about to eat Samgyupsal, Oppa. Not steak and wine” she laughs, holding her stomach.
“I just love this! What’s wrong with me wearing this at my own house? I can wear whatever I want. And this is not even funny, Hyun! Stop laughing” he regrets this already. This isn’t gonna work, just like his previous surprises. Sighing, he finally fishes out the letter from his pocket. “For you” he simply says, walking towards the chair while handing her the piece of paper. It takes a while for Seohyun to register what just happened. Yonghwa looked really upset when she was making fun of him and suddenly a letter? She shrugs then read it.
If she says she isn’t touched, it will be a total lie. She even feels that her knees are weakened. Her heart is beating so fast, faster than it had ever been. Tears fill her eyes as she reads the last words over and over again. But if Yonghwa is going to play it this way, she just has to play it the same way. She takes a deep breath, keeps her face as straight as possible and turns around.
She takes a seat in front of him and smiles. He thinks that she’s going to give him an answer. But no, she just says “Let’s eat” and proceeds to wrap the meat for herself. Yonghwa, on the other hand, is frustrated. He doesn’t know what Seohyun is thinking. If she’s gonna say no, why not just blurt it out? Why does she have to make him suffer like this? He cannot even concentrate on his dinner. He doesn’t even know if he eats the meat or the pepper. He can be careless about that. The only thing in his mind is what her answer is gonna be. He looks at her, hoping that she will give away her feeling from her eyes or something. However, he gets none in return as he sees how immersed she is in eating, even mumbling how good it is. Feeling angry, he finally gets up from his seat.
“I am going to the bathroom” which a nod is the only thing he gets. “WHOA! JINJJA! How can she do that to me? Whoa! Seo Joo Hyun, jinjja! Whoa!” he murmurs lowly but Seohyun can hear it all. She giggles to herself as she hurries to grab an empty plate.
In minutes, Yonghwa is finally back from the bathroom; fuming and looking very, very annoyed. He settles down on his previous seat. He picks a meat, but halts for a second. In jiffy, his anger is washed away. A wide smile appears on his face. In front of him is a tomato-ketchup hand writing on a white plate. It simply says “Yes”.
I have so much to say through this letter and I am worried if this can be a really long one, or even worse, a novel.
I want to take a little journey back to our first meeting. I still remember it all, Joohyun. What you wore, how you looked, how awkward it was for us. I remembered how you were easily tricked t believe that Jungshin was your husband. Luckily, he wasn’t. Or else I would be so jealous of him just like how my members were jealous of me. It’s a fateful meeting, I must say. Why? Because from that day on, my life wasn’t the same anymore.
I don’t know how you do it, how you make me feel so loved in every little things you do for me. You weren’t good in expressing yourself but through your actions I knew you cared for me and that was enough. Little by little, you opened yourself to me. Your unique sense of humor, your witty side, and your crunchy laughs, I could see them bit by bit. You slowly felt comfortable around me and I felt the same way. Maybe more. We both fell deeper and deeper each day, into something that we both didn’t know. A world that we weren’t allowed to visit but yet we did. Something was happening to me, Hyun-ah. And I could not help but to wonder if you felt the same way.
But we were both cowards, weren’t we? Or should I say, I was the coward between us? In the end, it should be the guy who closed the deal, the one who supposed to put the name in our relationship was me but I never did.
We decided to become friends after WGM ended. Heck, I even hated the name of it though I did not say anything to you. We kept in touch but that slowly killed me. Being your best friend wasn’t a good thing for my heart, Seo Joo Hyun. The thought you with other guys kept me awake at nights. When you called me in wee hours just to tell me how a male Idol got your number in a way you didn’t know, I wanted to rush to you and tell you not to respond him. But who I was to say that, anyway? So I kept my silence and we moved on with our lives.
I dated several women, you dated several guys. And between that, we managed to still be friends. The crazy thing was, I could not tone down my jealousy whenever you’re dating someone. I was such a bad guy, wasn’t I? I had a girlfriend but still, you were the one holding my heart. Was I that kind of jerk Joohyun? You once told me that I shouldn’t be playing with girls’ hearts. Did I do that Joohyun? That’s because the girl I hold dearly inside seemed oblivious to my feelings. It sounds so wrong, I know. And I’m sorry for that.
In nights, I thought about how we ended this way. How the heck would I be friends with you and not more than that? Why can’t I bring myself to ask you if you love me the way I love you? Why can’t I be the one holding your hand like Junsu Hyung does? Why can’t I be the one hugging you at nights? Why wasn’t I the one who has the right to kiss your lips? I was losing my mind because of you. Always, because of you
At one point, I decided that it was enough, that this mildang is over. It musts be the longest mildang period in the history. How many years? 6! 6 freaking years, Seo Joo Hyun. I don’t even know what’s really going on anymore. One thing I knew was that you’re still the one. You’re still the girl who took my breath away, who made me feel the butterflies inside my stomach, who made my heart beats faster, who can hurt me like no one else could. It’s you. Always been you.
I didn’t mind to wait for a while more. Until your heart was ready. Until it healed from your last break up.
That night, I gathered up my courage to knock on you apartment’s door. And when you opened it I could see the surprised look on your face. I rushed to hug you, not minding how wet I was from the rain. You stiffened for a minute. I was afraid that you didn’t feel the same way as me. Maybe, after 6 years, you really did move on. Maybe, I did not have a place in your heart anymore. Not in the way I wanted it to.
But I was willing to risk anything. It’s gotta be over. In a good way or a bad way. So I kneeled down in front of you. I could feel the lump in my throat, clogging it. After some time, those words came out from my mouth. “Will you be my girlfriend, Joohyun-ah?”
You gasped but your eyes softened. You nodded, holding my hands and helped me get up. “Finally” I could hear your whisper in my ears when you hugged me. I could not describe my feeling in words. It was just amazing and I thought my heart was going to burst. That night, you made me the happiest man on earth.
Through this letter, Seo Joo Hyun. I am going to ask you for a favor. Will you make me the happiest man on earth once again?
Will you marry me, Seo Joo Hyun?
Yours, Jung Yong Hwa.
“Oppa! Dinner is ready! Come out now! What takes you so long to change your clothes anyway?” Yonghwa can hear Seohyun’s voice from his room.
He folds the paper. A smile appears on his lips as he thinks he has done a really good job. In a hurry, he comes out from his room, wearing formal attire.
“Why are you wearing that at home?” Seohyun eyes him quizzically.
“Isn’t it nice?”
“Uh-huh, just… It doesn’t really match the occasion now. We are about to eat Samgyupsal, Oppa. Not steak and wine” she laughs, holding her stomach.
“I just love this! What’s wrong with me wearing this at my own house? I can wear whatever I want. And this is not even funny, Hyun! Stop laughing” he regrets this already. This isn’t gonna work, just like his previous surprises. Sighing, he finally fishes out the letter from his pocket. “For you” he simply says, walking towards the chair while handing her the piece of paper. It takes a while for Seohyun to register what just happened. Yonghwa looked really upset when she was making fun of him and suddenly a letter? She shrugs then read it.
If she says she isn’t touched, it will be a total lie. She even feels that her knees are weakened. Her heart is beating so fast, faster than it had ever been. Tears fill her eyes as she reads the last words over and over again. But if Yonghwa is going to play it this way, she just has to play it the same way. She takes a deep breath, keeps her face as straight as possible and turns around.
She takes a seat in front of him and smiles. He thinks that she’s going to give him an answer. But no, she just says “Let’s eat” and proceeds to wrap the meat for herself. Yonghwa, on the other hand, is frustrated. He doesn’t know what Seohyun is thinking. If she’s gonna say no, why not just blurt it out? Why does she have to make him suffer like this? He cannot even concentrate on his dinner. He doesn’t even know if he eats the meat or the pepper. He can be careless about that. The only thing in his mind is what her answer is gonna be. He looks at her, hoping that she will give away her feeling from her eyes or something. However, he gets none in return as he sees how immersed she is in eating, even mumbling how good it is. Feeling angry, he finally gets up from his seat.
“I am going to the bathroom” which a nod is the only thing he gets. “WHOA! JINJJA! How can she do that to me? Whoa! Seo Joo Hyun, jinjja! Whoa!” he murmurs lowly but Seohyun can hear it all. She giggles to herself as she hurries to grab an empty plate.
In minutes, Yonghwa is finally back from the bathroom; fuming and looking very, very annoyed. He settles down on his previous seat. He picks a meat, but halts for a second. In jiffy, his anger is washed away. A wide smile appears on his face. In front of him is a tomato-ketchup hand writing on a white plate. It simply says “Yes”.