mixed emotions, and restraints
so, from what i've decided my ex's haven't helped me at all, but that the girl im "talking" with made them all kinda seem like there special, but I guess idk what im saying. Shoot. Ok well anyways, just got back from hanging out with the twins, stacy, and MAH watched enough, and got to listen to justin and josh go all crazy about how hot j.LO is but I guess that's how things go. right? them plus any movie actress = never ending conversations. Well just wanted to give some stupid update, about something, I have no clue about. Really wish I could convey my emotions from what I wanna do, to how im going to accomplish goals, there is no answer. If only I knew when and where things would happen I think I could build a bridge. Yet this is what life is all about finding out why, and figuring out when. I think I might be getting all stupid phyco on ya'll but go for it, doesn't matta all of 4 people might read this right? and I mean sure any one can post, but no one does, it's all myspace, and internet relationships. Which is another reason im attracted to mary allen, just seems that b/c a it's not something that's going to be lost in the blankness of the internet where you don't have to face some one or even here thier voice to hold a conversation, which I think is cheap and limited every one here to some extent. Yet that seems to be what it's all about, there ain't any mixed emotions maybe on how to handle it but the restraint is what I am and will be practicing, I will come out ahead. and will be a better person at the end. I just hope that the creame filling between it all won't all screw up. But I guess it's all to be found out latta.
gosh I better not screw this one up.
gosh I better not screw this one up.